Hi Sara,

So very sad to hear of the latest developments with Pinky. I identified with you so much over the years (though my daughter was my natural child) and though I haven't been an active member for a long while I peek in every now and again.

Yup, such is the power of addiction. You always hope it will turn around but it's only the very few that can make it happen. And it doesn't mean that they don't want to. Nobody WANTS to be an addict . Hell, it doesn't even mean they don't love their kids. One thing doesn't really have much to do with the other except where it impacts their ability to actually care responsibly for the kiddos. (Some even believe they ARE caring responsibly for the kids!)

Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that I feel for all of you and hope Pinky can be one of the few that make it for all your sake but especially for those 3 who have never deserved the fall-out. :-(

Prayers that Pinky gets the help she needs.

Addiction is something I never thought I would have to deal with. My son (who has been getting help) says that the men's homeless shelter in our city is an easy source of drugs. Even in the half way house he's living in now, residents still use and try to play the system. The temptation is everywhere and it takes a lot of support for an addict to say no.

It' s a shame she has chosen such a disastrous route. There might be a possibility she could be acceoted through ER as a suicide risk for at least three dys. After that,based on her past behavior, famiky might be able to have her committed. At least they would get her clean. She clearly is a danger to herself. I know you have been through so much with her. Be strong.

Ironically, we got a call from an ER doctor the other day telling us she was there. He asked my husband if she had ever tried to hurt herself, and of course my husband said "no," because she never did. I realized later that the doctor was probably looking for a reason to keep her. If he had said that, I'm sure my husband's answer might have been different. But they had to release her the next morning.

Sara, I just wanted to say I am so sorry for the extra stress.

I pray she gets strong enough to beat her addiction. My daughter too is homeless and in hiding. She has a prison term awaiting her when they find her. She will steal, prostitute, and sell drugs to get her fix. Her veins have collapsed from all the needles. She has died and brought back by her addict friends (thank God one of them knew CPR.) Addiction is a terrible. . She has threatened suicide several times and I fear if the drugs don't kill her, either herself or someone else will. She has been in rehab several times. Never, ever worked.

Horsepad, I know what you mean. Pinky has been in at least five detox/rehabs that we know of, starting when she was just 15. She does wonderfully for about a month or two afterwards, then relapses every time.

She told us that her social worker found funding for yet another rehab, so we'll see what happens. But the same issues will face her when she gets out - she has no education, can't pass a background check (drugs and prostitution), so she can't get a job. And she must've done something new because we've been getting about 3-4 letters a day from lawyers advertising their services to her.

I suppose I should be thankful that she's gotten the OK to go into a rehab, but at this point it seems like a waste of her time and our taxpayer dollars. Sounds harsh, but I hope THIS TIME it works. (The definition of insanity.)

When the ER doctor asked if she has tried to hurt herself, a good response would be"every day when she takes drugs, prostitutes herself
" .

Exactly, Daisy. I think my husband was freaked out that he got a call from an ER doctor in the first place.

Supposedly Pinky got her funding and has to call every day to see if there's an opening. She wants to visit today because it's our middle kid's birthday. We'll see if she shows up.

Just wondering if Pinky made it to the birthday party?

Special days are more of a trial than a treat anymore. I know the kids are hoping mom will appear. You can see their countenance fall as the day progresses and she is not there.

Mom is homeless and addicted to meth. Our other daughter is an addict too but we haven't seen her since the day she put the baby in my husbands arms and walked out of the court house and everyone's lives.

Do the tears ever end?

She actually made it, and stayed overnight, although she did sleep the entire next day.
Apparently she's waiting for space in the rehab, but who knows?

SaraBT, keep praying and don't give up. My daughter is in her 3rd rehab. It has been a rough road and I am cautiously optimistic. We have set some really firm boundaries with her this time and pray it works. As much as I love my grandkids andbi know I'm good for them, they deserve to have their mom back healthy. There has been damage already done in their short little lives and I pray I don't have to keep them from their mother indefinitely. Addiction is a horrible disease and no one would pick that life. I will come to pray for you and your family.

*continue to pray