I'm so tired of this. Bio dad is pretty consistant about visits, has always been. Except that in December of 2010 he went into a recovery progarm. He had grandios dreams, he was working with an orginazation called "black men reclaiming fatherhood", had access to free legal adivse, etc, etc, He's always said that he wants his kids and that they below with him. He thinks it's wrong that they're with us. Whatever, what would be wrong would be for the kids to be with him!! Anyway, his last visit was right before thanksgiving, then he disapearred. Then today out of nowwhere he calls. He's in recovery, it's an awesome program, he's getting his kids back, and he's sorry about "what he's putting them through"!! What the heck? What is he putting them through? They know he's daddy, they love him like an uncle, they've never lived with him, they get excited when they see him in the same way they get excited when they see thier grandparents (my parents, it's what they call them).

Anyway, I'm so tired of the threat of the rug being pulled from under us. Last week it was Surragote, she's talking parenting classes. This week is spearm donor. Enough already. i want to be able to plan a vacation, my life without those two appearing when they feel like to to shake things up. The more i think about it the more convinced I am that working towards adoption would be the best for all involved.

I actually think our chances might be ok, the kids have never lived with the parents, they have never provided for them. Isn't that considered abandoment?