It's logical to be scared. It's something that has been publicly questioned in the media and you always hear stories of bullying and rejection. It is certainly possible that you are gay, maybe you're bi or learning that you're attracted to your perception of femininity.

Maybe experiment a little. For example I went to an all girls school and I got my fair share of crushes but I found it was mainly "masculine" people and I still get crushes on boys and non-binary and trans people when I just see pictures that people show me or whatever. So I'm pan/omnisexual, but I didn't know that at first. It took a while for me to choose a label for it. And my friend who is gay thought she was bi for a long time and then figured it out after a few years that she was gay.

So I recommend experimenting. This can also be reassuring as you may find you surprise yourself in a way that relieves pressure. And then you can work on coming out to yourself. Yes to yourself, accepting it is the way and maybe finding role models to help you on your journey so that you can normalise it for yourself and it'll be less scary, and then the relationships will be the scary things.

If you can, talk to somebody who is open minded, but be careful as some people may surprise you. Also be prepared for "but you've never even kissed a girl" "but I know you'll come back to men" and stuff like that. Eventually you'll laugh at it. It's hard when it comes to the people close to you respond in that way, but then maybe you agree not to talk about relationships and sexuality from then on.

You will also find nice people along the way. And if you turn out to be strait and it was a bi-curious phase the boop it will go back to empty crushes. The emptyness may be something about asexuality as well, and you're more concerned with emotional connections, then for some reason you click better with women. A thing to look into is the difference between romantic orientation and sexual orientation. Good luck

I'm 14 now and I went through and still am "transitioning" through a similar phase from being originally straight and liking many guys similarly to what you said until about a year ago I dated a girl that's when I said I was bi, it didn't work out cuz she liked me more as a friend but now I definitely feel more attracted to girls, doesn't necessarily mean you're a Lesbian you could be bi or just identify as bi and be open to what you feel is right. Even tho rn I'm more sexually attracted to girls I could still like a guy so I just stay open to what feels right

I have been feeling the same way, but idk if I'm full lesbian or bisexual. It's hard because my parents would never approve. I have depression and nothing seems to make me happy anymore. I really need someone to talk to, so I can figure things out.