Gastric Bypass Surgery Support Group

Gastric bypass (GBP) is any of a group of similar operative procedures used to treat morbid obesity, a condition which arises from severe accumulation of excess weight in the form of fatty tissue, and the health problems ("co-morbidities") which result. If you are considering gastric bypass or have had it, join the community where we share our experiences and find support.

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mrschizzy 09/28/2011

So, yesterday was a day from hell. My husband and I had a bad morning and that just got the day started wrong. I was so rattled by it that I left work early, did some shopping and came home. I was supposed to go to a water aerobics class last night, which I did not go. When I got home I had some yogurt, but my stomach had been in knots all day and it just didn't sit well with me. So that is why I didn't go to my class. What did I do instead (even though my stomach was already bothering me?)....I hate freaking tortilla chips!! I'm only 4 weeks out and am NOT supposed to be having tortilla chips! At the time, it was just for comfort and I did not care. I chewed them really good as far as I can remember, but I have no idea how many I had. I reverted back to my "old ways" of using food in times of stress and emotional upheavel. I also paid dearly for it. I felt pain like I had never felt before in my life. I had tons of gas, it felt like someone was stabbing me in my pouch. It was horrible. My mother in law came over to check on me and she called the EMS. I did not go to the hospital because I was doing better. But even this morning I am having some discomfort. I got for my month follow-up tomorrow, and I have to tell them about this, but I am so ashamed. I had been doing so well before this happened and I am so disappointed in myself for allowing this to happen. I only pray I did not do any damage to myself. I should have just gone to my freaking class!!! Today, I'm physically and mentally worn out.

deleted_user 09/28/2011

OK so now that you have beaten yourself up big time mentally and physically you can draw a line under this experience and learn from it. None of us are perfect and many of us have the same issues with emotional eating! 4 weeks out and eating tortilla chips is probably not the best thing you could do but I know you wont want to do it again because of the pain you had. I am or used to be an emotional eater especially when I was stressed but now I try to deal with each stressful or upsetting incident as they happen. You have done so well so far and you are going to become a happy healthy person who can enjoy life to the max. If you need to talk I am here for you xx

deleted_user 09/28/2011

Take a deep breathe sweetie!Tommorow is another day to start fresh:)Good luck to you!

deleted_user 09/28/2011

Yes ma'am they do die hard. I have been catching myself eating in the kitchen while making the fam's meals. I ate something can't even remember what it was and did not chew well and swallowed before I knew it and uummm let's just say it hurt and it did not stick around long.

Please do not beat yourself up over this one incident. This is a tough battle and at least you recognize the falter now. Would you have before?? You made the decision to go off plan now make the decision to go back on. You can do this, take the control back. Don't let one bad moment cause several more. I too used to eat when my hubby and I would fight. Somehow my mind turned it into a revenge thing towards him and I don't know why or what but I know that the only person I was hurting was myself. Take back the control!!! You can do it. Good luck to you and best wishes!!!

imjj4short 09/28/2011

What is done, is done. The pouch did its job and I'm guessing you won't be doing a repeat any time soon. Forgive yourself and move on.

You can do this!!

JJ

deleted_user 09/28/2011

You learned from your experience and you are being open n honest about it. That is very brave and keeps you from isolating which most pof us do or did especially before we had surgery. Stay strong and move forward!!!!
Julie

deleted_user 09/28/2011

Pick yourself up...dust yourself off and start all over again! d

mrschizzy 09/28/2011

Thank you everyone for your kind words and your support. It was a scary experience and I will definitely not repeat it. It is just so emotionally hard to think that I did that to myself because I was feeling sad! I went back to full liquids today to give my pouch some time to rest and recover from my abuse. Thanks for being there for me!

deleted_user 09/28/2011

What have I learned from your experience? You are only human. Emotions are tough stuff. They make people kill... so a few chips... hmmm. As long as you are ok and didn't do any physical damage, let it go. Use this as something that will hopefully make you stop for just an additional second before eating something you may not really want.

You are worth this fight... GO FOR IT!!!

Kathy082411 09/28/2011

Yeah, I'd say lesson learned - jump back on the wagon. I get stressed at work often and find myself dreaming about how food is going to 'make me happy,' then come back to reality and force myself to remember that food is not going to be there anymore like it was in the past. Hope you're feeling better soon!

deleted_user 09/28/2011

Old habits may be a nice way of saying compulsive eating. The emotional and psychological impact of our reliance on food, only comes clear as we see how we react to the desire to eat.

I am 14 months out and attend WLS-OA and do the whole bit, and I can't stay on 1000c for anything. The compulsive switches on and I am like a ragdoll in a boxer's jaws.

I wear a bracelet that says, "Hang Tough." It is a symbol of a WW2 warrior, being memorialized by a kid who collected $100K for a memorial. I wear it to give me a moment to think, as the compulsion comes on. It's called a "talisman," and becomes more powerful as I am successful...

Find your own way, if you need to provide yourself a moment of sanity, before you do something about which you will ask, "WTF?" in a few short minutes!

{:>} RickyDee/ Sleeve/ 07-28-10/-138#

deleted_user 09/28/2011

Mrs Schzizzy,

You are brave to post this. Now hold your head up high and move on from your learning experience.

xo
Mo

deleted_user 09/28/2011

I'm glad you shared your story. When I met with the therapist before my surgery, she asked me if I am an emotional eater. I told her that I eat for every emotion. I eat to celebrate, to mourn, for happy times, sad times, when I'm stressed and sometimes for no reason at all. The thing that helps me is: perspective. In the grand scheme of things, your "slip" off the wagon will not even be remembered next year. What you will have next year is a stronger, healthier "you". Not just physically, but emotionally too. I'm least able to give advice since I had my surgery last week, but getting through this first week was an effort in itself. It's hard knowing that we have the ability to pick up any food we want and eat it - although we will pay the price in pain. It helps to know that there are so many who have stuggled as you have and I will and I hope you forgive yourself. You've paid the price in pain, and it's all behind you now...

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