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So it occurred to me earlier when I was out shopping how in sync I am with my body now. Pre-surgery I never used to see myself and my body as one, if that makes sense. I would always wrap my mind up and not relate my slow movements to myself. So when jeers came they 'bounced' off because my mind rejected the idea that a body that could earn such ridicule could be linked to my consciousness. I used to see my body doing things as if I wasn't part of it, my arm would reach out but it wouldn't be ME just part of the puppet I controlled to live.
Is this making sense? Anyway I was out earlier and I realized the distance I created is no longer there (When I reached for a tomato and it felt like ME doing it, not a puppet) and it feels wonderful to be connected to myself again! A feeling of happy wholeness that I haven't had before had me grinning like a loon for the rest of the outing. Have any of you had a similar moment?
I'm curious, it's a great feeling and I hope you are feeling it too :D
Is this making sense? Anyway I was out earlier and I realized the distance I created is no longer there (When I reached for a tomato and it felt like ME doing it, not a puppet) and it feels wonderful to be connected to myself again! A feeling of happy wholeness that I haven't had before had me grinning like a loon for the rest of the outing. Have any of you had a similar moment?
I'm curious, it's a great feeling and I hope you are feeling it too :D
But thinking back I may have experienced what you are talking about... Thank you for sharing this... Gave me something else to think about... Wow, how our lives have changed since surgery...
I always felt much smaller than I really was, for example I would think I could shimmy through a small opening between a chair and the wall, when infact I was way to big to get through with out something moving. So, I would avoid all situations that might be embarrising after my mind would size up the situation (to try it or not).
Just lately, I have noticed that my mind will tell me, "nope not a big enough area for you", when infact I can squeeze through quite easily. Does that make sense?
It's really kind of weird, looking in the mirror this morning and not recognizing myself turned sideways. Is that me? Looking pretty thin? I have to touch my hip just to acknowledge to myself it really is me....very weird things happening in my mind lately.
So yes, I can totally relate to what you are saying =)