I feel really guilty because I am one of the few people who doesn't think what I have endured was worth it. I know I am only almost three months out and i just had surgery again last week, but I miss so much of my old life. Yes i have gone from 256 pounds to 200 pounds, but I am not happy like I thought I would be. I feel crappy most of the time and I miss eating at functions like at the fourth of july cookout yesterday. I had to come home because I felt sick and i was in some pain after my second surgery last week. Has any one else ever felt this way or am I just crazy???
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