I showed up early to the 3rd Monday 7pm meeting of local ga but for 3rd week in a row I was only person there
I have gambled for 14 days straight after 1st empty meeting
I hope tonight will be different for me as I intend to start a new streak of a more fulfilling life just wish I had someone to talk to as it has been hard to stop by myself
one minute I am sure I am done forever and an hour later I’m convinced I should go gambling how a person can change from one extreme to the other in an hour I can’t understand it simply doesn’t seem possible
I know I haven't posted in a while ......just been so busy trying to look after myself (healthwise) and life. I got the flu last week and its really wrecking me to the point that I'm feeling depressed. Not sure what that's all about ....maybe the fact that my life hasn't gotten any better even though I stopped gambling some time ago. You wonder why that is .......well the gambling...
I have tried to post on here several times and I just can barley move my fingers to type. My depression is at an all time high. I hate myself and wish I were dead. I will not kill myself but feel I am resigned to a life of toal misery. I am meserable 24 hours a day. Is it the withdrawl from gambling or is it that my brain just dosen't work the way it should. I feel there is no hope. I...