You can do this! Another failed attempt is another opportunity! At least you tried! Don't feel bad, we've all been there and do care. As a lot of people will probably suggest, read these posts, gain some insight to what your triggers are and get some outside help if necessary.

Welcome faithn0513!! There is no such thing as responsible gambling, other than not gambling at all, for a compulsive gambler. We hope you come back often, read and learn. Only you can decide if you need to do something different in your life to make it better! Hope to see you back!!

Faith hang in there! I agree with new55, for me responsible gambling is not gambling at all. And you know what? Life is good without it. Don't give up on yourself

It is a big trap when you are a compulsive gambler, as I am to think that I can become a social gambler again.
It is exactly this denial that kept me repeating the same insane behavior, controlled, not controlled, back to treatment, until I feel I can control it, back out to gamble until it is out of control, back to treatment --->etc., etc.
I sent myself through that cycle several times before getting to G/A step 1:
I admitted I was powerless over gambling and my life had become unmanageable.

I have the longest stretch of gamble free days I have ever accomplished and it came with hard work and I had to do EVERYTHING I could to NOT gamble. I came to realize that this was serious business and I am fighting for my life.
I am not you and only you know if you can be a social gambler or you are a compulsive gambler. If controlled "responsible" gambling is not working for you, you might want to consider step 1.

There is so much more to life than gambling that I was missing out on while I was in the throes of my gambling addiction.
Good luck and ((((hugs)))) to you - keep on keeping on.

Once you've crossed the line into compulsive gambling there is no going back to just gambling. Trust me. The best thing to do is walk away for good. Everyone will tell you the same thing. When they tried to cut back, set limits, manage how they will play, it never works.

Ask yourself this. Why do you feel the need to gamble at all in the first place? What's stopping you from moving on from gambling for good? What is it about gambling that makes you feel you need to maintain it as a part of your life indefinitely?