Hi Jlou,
I dont / have never gambled on line cuz' I only have a fuel cc, no others. ( which is probably a good thing ) but Im a casino junkie and I know how hard it can be to quit.
Im glad you are here, reading and sharing.

Hi, Jlou! I was wondering about those online casinos. I had a neighbor who used to play poker online and the site he went to got raided by the government and froze all accounts. I don't know if he ever got his money back.
I can certainly relate to your struggle as I go to the little storefront casinos (internet cafe/sweepstakes) places they have here. I hope you can try not to think about it. Is there a way you can use parental control software and block the sites that you go to? Maybe that would help.

Hi jlou,
Keep the plans...keep the faith!! It's a tough battle but we are not alone. Take Care.

i never really did none of the online gambling but theres suppose to be filters or programs you can buy online to block these gambling sites. might be worth looking up.

I'm jumping back on the wagon too jlou! I gambled yesterday. Holidays are hard for some reason. Like it's a reason to let loose but it's not healthy. We both deserve better. Let's get back to living! I'm with you.

Yes mercury the holidays are tough for me too. I think itcould be a lack of good things in my life right now which leads to frustration and boredom. The gambling for me is an escape from my own emotions. An easy out. I try to find positive things but they just don t have that adrenaline rush to them. Cutting the grass, visiting relatives and spending quality time alone are nice but come on there s no coparison. Nothing comes close. That s the dangerous part. Gambling it all is exciting and irresponsible. I guess having lessexcitement Is what gambling free is all about. To learn to live emotionally balanced. I m not really sure. IT IS TOUGH!!!!

yeah i know what your talking about when your saying the thrill of the game and the rush of it all dont compare. think we all get those thrills when we go but when the thrill is over is what sucks. hell feels like my butt is dragging on the ground so bad when leaving i gotta pick gravel out in when i get home. lol lol lol and yeah no thrill in that.

Hey dewit2it, I love the way you put that! I laughed out loud here alone in my apt.! There is humor in this mess isn't there? Tomorrow (monday) will be a big test for me too. Don't have enough money to go, but may be stupid and go anyway. Trying to keep in "front not back" of my mind all the things I need to use that money for. Birthdays comin up, trip to Missouri for grdaugh. graduation party, flowers for my patio, new summer clothes, could go on and on and on. So I am not going to gamble it away this time! It makes me feel sooooo good to go to the store and buy things. That's almost as good a high as winning a jackpot on a slot machine. Gotta keep at it. you too out there, WE CAN DO IT! Sorry rambling, but that's the way it is. thanks, retaann

I agree. It is the anticipation that seems to be more exciting than actually being there! The ending is quite predictable now.

Hi jlou47..well done for the week not gambing online, and comiserations that you lost 700. Eventually we find out its not about the money, its about getting hionest with ourselves. Cancel your online account. I got caught only the once and its scare teh hell outta me that it was so easy to lose money and the aussie dllar then was about 62c so that was more of a horrorfied effect on me. These days I am scared and its so good to be able to think past the hype and adrenalin rush of gambiling on the slots here. IN order to achieve this all I had to do was get honest with myself. Its taken a long time but i never gave up trying. Bust became less frequent and i can ratioaniise the whole deal now in m y had and it makes me feel both sick , fearful and know the feelings i,m gonna have if i were to bust again these days. We are such optimistic people, gamblers, but to our detriment and believe me money wont solve the mental problems that stem from gambling. eventually. MOst of what ive developed has been a combination of things, but gambling was the main catalist i felt
Losing the desire is so damn hard but i imagined. beating my head up against a wall and expected a differnent result everytime. Except there wasnt one, theoretically I was gonna bleed and did in every part of my being. recovering after a gambling spree. It used took me at least a week to recover towards the end and yet, came the beginning of abstinance. Theres only so much beating up on ourselves we can take before we need drugs( meds) or alcohol to relive the pain then to replace the gambling efforts.with other things.
Ive been through rehabs done all the strategies to cover me, but still i would find a way around during my hey days of gambling, but in time and i mean a long time, in not giving up, i,m ok today. JUst for today as we know its a daily effort to practis what we.v en told and learnt. Its not until the subconvious mind gts he message that the concious mind has a chance to stop for good. Helpful hints and tools and strtegies do work i found when I finally lost everything. Home car family and friends. I had to sepnd 3 years in vertual solitude for the changes to occur. Bredom is such a mence and very conducive to breking the good things we ar striving to acheive. In GA they say once youve stopped the money problems will take care of itself. IN the meantime we are taking care of ourselves to stay sane and enjoy the end to this madness, as thats what it adds up to so i discovered.
Hope my small revealing of what i know willl help you seek help as w cant do this alone initially. Here is good but i needed sponsers etc and of course someones shoulder to cry on each time ide gambled. I was a heavy drinker dop smoker and pill popper (Valium) after a bust. Now i rely on none of those things thank god but. yeah remmeber its a daily thing and at any time its a struggle with self for survival and to win out over this insidious addiction.instead fo tryin gto solve our problems with winning money.
Good fortune and god hunting for the right people will come into your life for support.. jst keep asking and seeking the right way for you.
Blessings..
Vincent.