Overcoming addiction is a process and not easily just overcome. I hope you won't beat yourself up. If you are not ready to go to a meeting, hang out here, read- there are so many great stories and tips to support you and have you feel less alone.
welcome back.
:)

thanks for coming back,
please do not let the "rumination" and going over
and over get to you.
I did a post on it.
Just put the hinderances in place,
like jc says......
no money no gamble.
it works,
If GA isn't your thing then come here post
and journal,
you can make it private or not,
stop the insanity,
don't give them anymore.
You can see how you get so used
to going when you are...........
stressed
bored
lonely
worried
happy
sad
feel like having fun
hoping to win
trying to get back what you lost
feel like socializing
feel like being alone
want a drink
want to smoke
trying to escape feeling anything
trying to avoid something
just going for dinner
just going to a concert
just on the way home
just because you can
just because you are alive

a happy and content and fulfilling life
that brings meaning and pleasure
is not found at the casino.

It is dark and will bring you and your
soul to the edge of despair and death.
It only gets worse.
everytime.

love it that you are back.
stay with us.

CandCand - What can I say other than I am SO glad you came back to visit us and let us know you are ok. When you are sick and tired of being sick and tired, please come back. We welcome you with open arms now and in the future, so if you really would like to start feeling better about yourself, have some money to pay your bills, and start having some great weeks - please join us in recovery. You could really help yourself out by sitting for hours looking at your screen reading old posts, instead of putting your hard earned money into a machine that will just eventually suck it up!

Please stay with us!

As everyone said...please keep coming back, even if you relapse. I relapsed so many times..somehow coming back here made me even more determined.

Welcome back- going to a meeting would be great, but the fact you're seeking help is best. As already suggested, keep coming back here, reading as much as you can and throwing your 2 cents into the mix and you'll get there.
As long as you have the desire to stop gambling, that's the essence of the idea.
Jay

YES candcand,
like jay says,
"having the desire"
not all, probably not many of us don't relapse EVER.
You will find the relapse can make you stronger more convinced
and more determined than ever.
You came back quicker and more honestly now
make the desire stronger and the action more intense
(GA, here, journal, 12 steps) and you are on your way to a
GAMBLE FREE life.
It is hard to take the first step,
the meetings are nothing to be afraid of,
they are just people like us,
usually some with a little clean time and a few with more clean time.
I most often find I fit about somewhere in the middle as far as the amount of clean time.
They will be real young and some quite old, but
basically they have the very same gruelling stories of pain and hurt and suffering and despair that I was feeling and they also had stories of compassion and understanding and insight that I couldn't wait to write down.
I was amazed at how they offered me a list of phone numbers of people to call if I was in a panic gambling mode, people I'd just met.
But then I realized, over time, that they felt like we do here. A very deep seated and sincere interest and need to help other gamblers in any way they could. They knew that they could help because they'd been there done that and were probably the only and last resort for a lot of people and so they came forward so readily and willingly to serve and help someone to cope. They know it can become even worse and they can only live with what they've done with their lives by helping others. It is almost a nonnegotiable and a mandatory inclination on a recovering addicts part that they "serve" others with their knowledge and compassion. It doesn't just help YOU it helps THEM as well.
Go to GA,
I went to NA and AA when I couldn't find one.
It too was a place of compassion and understanding of people who are under control and out of control and learning to come out of the darkness.
Please keep coming back here.
We did miss you.