Gambling Addiction & Recovery Support Group

Compulsive gambling is an urge or addiction to gamble despite harmful negative consequences or a desire to stop. A preferred term among many professionals is problem gambling, as few people described by the term experience true compulsions in the clinical sense of the word. Problem gambling often is defined by whether harm is experienced by the gambler or others rather...

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cathyio 09/02/2015

I too have slipped close to 500 times. I slip because of several reasons in my head. First I say this time is different. Then I say this is how I can make a lot of money fast. Then I say control it this time. I miss the high. Life is quiet and boring I miss the fix. Then I tell myself I deserve it. Blah blah blah. There's about 100 more feelings that I rationalize to slip. Once I plan to slip there's no changing this mastermind.
Then I feel like a piece of shit. I'm broke and I lied to EVERYONE to get bailed out for my expensive slips. The feeling is always the same and never slightly different. All around I feel just awful. I have decided maybe this time this could be it. I have decided that I'm sick and tired at 48 of being broke and feeling like shit. So I will now continue it replay the constan

cathyio 09/02/2015

I will continue to replay the constant feeling of feeling like shit and day by day I won't want to gamble. Thanks!

ksgal13 09/02/2015

I know exactly what you mean! The reasons and thoughts that roll through my mind are similar. I would tell myself "it's not a race" and I would walk in to the casino and then the race to win win win would begin. Eventually I would lose it all and wonder what the heck just happened.... Over and over again. No control... In the midst, money has no value except to fuel the next win. hang in there. Tomorrow is a new day and a great day to NOT gamble.

cathyio 09/03/2015

My type of gambling is like being in a tornado
Ike Dorothy in the wizard of oz. it's spinning out of control and the only way it stops is when I stop. All those lies that I tell myself when I'm about to make another slip really doesn't matter because the outcome is the same with "the after storm".
My 84 year old smart beautiful mother got scammed last week out of $5200 and I was devastated for her. The asshole told her lies about her grandson. Luckily we were able to stop the UPS package. And she got her money back.

I was thinking I am worse than that asshole, I am her daughter and I have scammed her out of money with my lies. At least this is his "job" to scam. Gambling makes me a lying total asshole. So let's continue to be good people. It feels a lot better in all aspects of my life.

marieh2 09/03/2015

I have lived a life that did not tolerate lies. Over and over my first husband lied to me. I don't trust people who lie.

My addiction has lead me to lie. That is worse then the amount of money I have wasted. The scary part is it was easy.
Phone rings, I don't pick up. Walk out side of casino and make up a whole adventure of being at the mall or helping out a friend. Walk back into the casino. Scary this was easy.
Now keeping up the lie, that is hard.

We have to stop the lies. It hurts others and it hurts our soul.

Cathyio--- Don't lie to your self anymore.
You can do this.
Hugs.

Leapyear22 09/04/2015

You are not a piece of shit, or an asshole. I felt that way for a long time about myself, until someone fold me to "drop the rock" and once I did, I started to heal, I was in recovery and able to forgive myself. If I kept feeling like a piece of shit, then, I would justify why I would go out again. What was the point in recovery, if I was such a bad person? I had to turn that around. I did hurt a lot of people, and for that, I will always being sorry, but, the best thing I could ever do for the people I hurt, is to be in recovery. One day at a time, they are able to forgive and trust me again. Its the best feeling in the world. Drop the rock sweet girl. Keep posting.

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