I know your pain bro. I gained like 50 pounds after I started gambling heavily. It's hard when you are recovering from gambling then realize you have all kinds of other stuff going on that you have to deal with now as well that was previously masked by your gambling. As with gambling it is one day at a time...

I find that when I gamble I do fall into other bad habits too... If I go to the casino I will eat more junk food, look at more pornography, drink more etc. I wouldnt say I they are addictions necessarily but when I feel bad about myself I do anything to escape reality.
Now, when I have a few weeks GF, I am feeling much more positive and so I am eating better and using my time wisely on things like my job search, and at the end of the day I can feel good about things, even though I am not totally happy with where I am, I am working towards a better goal...

Eastwester is 100% right. My gambling addiction created some horrible circumstances for myself and many people that I care about. I am alive today, only by the Grace of God.

That being said, if I could only be in the place I am today spiritually by having to go through everything I did to get here, I would go through it all again in two seconds. And it was bad.

Now, why I had to go through what I did to to get here, that is a whole separate issue.:))

I like you have an addictive behavior. There is definitely a downside, but there is also an upside. You can use that same addictive nature to:

1) Set goals and strive towards them like average people can not.

2) Work longer and harder than average people when you make the task something you obsess.

I have used my bi-polar, borderline, ADD and OCD qualities to accomplish more than I ever thought I could.

You can do the same..:).

Kenji