I'm new to the group and glad to take this step. I have been a bit heavy on the gambling front for a while, I won quite a bit but have lost quite a bit as well. When i was winning, everything was wonderful. When I'd lose, I'd find myself become irritable and then would walk away for a few days, a week, and go back to playing, "chasing the win" if you will. I'd go back and forth winning/losing etc. I'm tired of that routine and wasting time and money. I have a little ways to go to pay off my debt that I've incurred and looking forward to a fresh start. Any thoughts or words of encouragement would be greatly appreciated.
Last few weeks I've had a few gambling dreams that woke me up feeling pretty crappy. When I was gambling I'd have dreams where I won big sums of money, only to wake up disappointed that it was just a dream. Now my dreams have changed. In fact, I haven't had a dream of winning since I quit.My dreams now typically have me in a casino with a big chunk of cash in my pocket. I know I shouldn't gamble....
I’m not struggling today. I have no desire to gamble. I realize there’s no cure for my addiction, but I know, that by not feeding my addiction, I can begin leading a better way of living, and thinking. I’m not struggling today, but I never want to forget it’s because I’m not gambling today. Never. To become complacent would be detrimental to my recovery, I’ve had to learn...