Gambling Addiction & Recovery Support Group
Compulsive gambling is an urge or addiction to gamble despite harmful negative consequences or a desire to stop. A preferred term among many professionals is problem gambling, as few people described by the term experience true compulsions in the clinical sense of the word. Problem gambling often is defined by whether harm is experienced by the gambler or others rather...
I cried all day thtis morning because my 18 year old left for south carolina to go to college. I am so proud of him for everything he has done. He is my oldest of 4 children. His mom has been a compulsive gambler for the last 15 years. So sad to think I probably have been most of his life. He is such a great kid that I feel I must of done something right besides been a dirtbag gambler. Im so tired of this way of life and I need to finally beat this life of hell and lies once and for all. I need to just f----- do it instead of talking about over and over. The weird crazy thing about hell I feel when i lose is that the hell feeling goes away and I'm right back into the cycle of gambling again. Well that cycle needs to stop once and for all. I have made a decision that the last day i placed a bet is when my son went to college. The gift I can give him is becoming clean. I love him and my children and husband and for I need to put them first in front of hell I feel when im a gambler. Lets stop together and one day at a time.
Forgiveness is a gift we must give ourselves, despite how loathful we may feel about our past behaviors that pushed us over the brink into the waters of deep despair.
I know I will never forget what I've done, because it serves as a constant reminder of where I never want to find myself again. But I have, with teeny tiny baby steps, started to let go of feeling, as you say, like a "dirt bag" CG (btw, great words) I have consciously chosen to do this, because I know it will stand in the way of living my life. I will die on the vine if I don't.
I'mstarting to forgive myself a little more each day and with that grows my self esteem. That in turn, give mea greater realization that I am responsible for my actions and the benefits and/ or consequences of those actions. Painful as it is, growth, nonetheless.
Cathy, I am confident you can do this. I am so proud that you've planted your feet firmly on the ground, and positioned your toes close up against the starting line. It's not a race, but a journey that will eventually lead to peace and tranquility for you and your wonderful family. They already know you are a loving, caring wife and mother-it's time for you to feel the same way too!
All the best-we'll be here to support you all the way.
I woke this morning to go running with my friends and I first went online. Thank you so much for your words! means a lot!
You can do it - your done with it, once you put an end for good eventually everything in your life will become whole again. Gambling takes us away from all the good things in are lives, don't let it take you away anymore. Were all here for each other.
Best,
Niki