Gambling Addiction & Recovery Support Group
Compulsive gambling is an urge or addiction to gamble despite harmful negative consequences or a desire to stop. A preferred term among many professionals is problem gambling, as few people described by the term experience true compulsions in the clinical sense of the word. Problem gambling often is defined by whether harm is experienced by the gambler or others rather...
Day 45 GF! I have noticed over the last couple of days, I'm feeling tense, and reacting quickly and swiftly to issues, small issues, but I am still reacting. I am not being "mean" but passionate, its hard to explain, with work, friends and family, I have noticed I'm quick to respond, rather than listen, and I'm taking no prisoners, meaning, I'm abrupt? I can't explain it very well, but I honestly feel as though I have pent up rage, and I'm not sure why. I'm very aware of it, in the past, I could be brutal when it came to my work, I had one guy, years ago tell me "Terri, you could make John Wayne cry." Not something I'm proud of, but as an REO Manager and real estate broker, I get into some high pressure situations.
I hate how I feel if I blow up, or I steam roll someone, guilt is one of my number 1 triggers for my addiction, so I am trying to stay focused on that, and to not react over the top. Guilt, sucks. Someone told me awhile ago, "drop the rock" I didn't understand what they meant then, but I do today. Gamble free, heading into a much needed long weekend. I have so much to look forward to, and no desire to go and gamble, which is a good thing.
But I need to remind myself to be good to myself and to others. Learning to live life, breath, not over react, patience, love, calmness, humble and most of all forgiveness, one day at a time.
I hate how I feel if I blow up, or I steam roll someone, guilt is one of my number 1 triggers for my addiction, so I am trying to stay focused on that, and to not react over the top. Guilt, sucks. Someone told me awhile ago, "drop the rock" I didn't understand what they meant then, but I do today. Gamble free, heading into a much needed long weekend. I have so much to look forward to, and no desire to go and gamble, which is a good thing.
But I need to remind myself to be good to myself and to others. Learning to live life, breath, not over react, patience, love, calmness, humble and most of all forgiveness, one day at a time.
Congrats on the 45 days!
After I quit (4 months ago) my emotions were all over the place. I would cry at the drop of a hat, sometimes I was angry, sometimes manic. It drove me nuts for awhile, but hang in there because it does get better - I promise.
I think it was because I was finally feeling all of those emotions I was numbing at the casino. When everything came back it was like a tidal wave.
When things begin calming down (it will), that is a good time to begin exploring the root causes of your addiction. But it's hard to do while your emotions are fluctuating so dramatically.
Be patient with yourself and give it time. You are on the right path.
It is only Day 13 of being GF but my colleagues told me that I look happy nowadays and handle my emotions very well.
I think, they look at me as a drama queen before. Emotional roller coaster for me everyday at work.
I am happy I am finding my way to recovery, and I am slowly but surely getting to be the person I always want to be (peace loving) - :).
It is tough, but the fruits of being GF is priceless.
Have a happy GF day everyone :)
Like all else, this too shall pass.
Jay