Hi, my name is Jennifer. I have been lurking on this site for over a month and feel it has been helpful. However, this week I fell off the wagon and started gambling again. I had been gamble-free for a month and thought I was doing well. This week I went to the casino twice. The first time wasn't too bad but today I lost a good amount of money and felt that helpless feeling again. I went with my dad, who gambles quite a bit, and had to tell him I don't want him to ask me to go to the casino with him anymore. I feel like such a failure, as a mom, as a daughter, as a person. I am a very in-control person and hate the feeling that this compulsion has over me. I don't understand how I can be so frugal in all other areas of my life yet blow $400 at the casino in a matter of 2 or 3 hours. I just don't get it.
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