First of all, I want to apologize for posting at this moment. I feel like I come here, get the support and motivation I need and return when I crash and burn again.
First day of the new year and I made a simple mistake. Quite frankly, I know I was an idiot for going to the casino today. I can’t blame it on peer pressure but yes, I succumbed to peer pressure. I owe money and will pay it back tomorrow and try to move forward again. I didn’t lose as much as I have in the past but it hurt just as much if not more. This addiction is tough but I will prevail. Broke my 2 month, 1 week, 1 day streak but I will not give up.
Thank you for your support.
Day one gambling free 1/2/2018.
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