Gambling Addiction & Recovery Support Group
Compulsive gambling is an urge or addiction to gamble despite harmful negative consequences or a desire to stop. A preferred term among many professionals is problem gambling, as few people described by the term experience true compulsions in the clinical sense of the word. Problem gambling often is defined by whether harm is experienced by the gambler or others rather...
This saying has helped me when I feel weak:
"One bet is too many for me (a compulsive gambler) and a thousand bets is not enough for me (a compulsive gambler)."
for me it was never about the money, eventhough at the end it's about the money. For me its about the HIGH I thought I needed. I dont need that the HIGH anymore. I get a HIGH from
* Not being broke
* Not being a royal BITCH all the time time because iI lose money
* Being there for my 6 kids and husband
* NOT lying
* Having food in a neat house
* Being a good employee
* Listening to my family
* Not wasting my entire being on being preoccupied with gambling
* Exercising
ETC....... probably could list 10000 more things!!!
"One bet is too many for me (a compulsive gambler) and a thousand bets is not enough for me (a compulsive gambler)."
for me it was never about the money, eventhough at the end it's about the money. For me its about the HIGH I thought I needed. I dont need that the HIGH anymore. I get a HIGH from
* Not being broke
* Not being a royal BITCH all the time time because iI lose money
* Being there for my 6 kids and husband
* NOT lying
* Having food in a neat house
* Being a good employee
* Listening to my family
* Not wasting my entire being on being preoccupied with gambling
* Exercising
ETC....... probably could list 10000 more things!!!
I was experiencing a lot of thoughts last couple days, of "maybe just one more time, just one more bet"... and now you just returned me to reality from my delusion: "one bet is too many for me and a thousand bets are not enough". After I read that last part, I could just smell the bloody, greedy, super strong Hunger of my Addiction and saw myself being eaten by it.
Thank You!
Have a blessed Day!
Vicky.
Cathy, that list is excellent. I needed that reminder. My sisters got soooo tired of me never leaving the casino when I said I would, they refused to go with me. Can't blame them.
And Vicky, your description - "bloody, greedy, super strong Hunger of my Addiction" made me shudder.
I just started a great book "The Recovery Book" by Al J. Mooney, MD - his parents (dad was an MD too) were addicts as are his siblings. He says he's not "yet"...going to be a great read. I can tell.
So instead of sitting in a casino, I am going to get in my robe and enjoy a few hours with it. Of course my house needs a super deep cleaning but I am going to try to ignore that. (new behavior for this perfectionist)
Let's all hang in there.
Love,
Paula
and All the great "things" in life are not "things"!
One day at a time!!