I was so worried about you, I wasn't trying to stalk you, but when you disappeared after your last post, I became super concerned. I do hope you're getting the help that you need, and you're finding you way back to a happier, healthy life. Please be good to yourself, and remember, this world is a much better place with you in it.

I am scheduled to meet a psychologist every Thursday afternoon. I hope I am not insane yet.

This is scaring me.

Well, to be honest, it should scare you. It scares me. But, you are very much aware of it, you are in tune with your feelings, and the fact that it "scares" you, is a good sign. Charmed, you can do this! Take it one second at a time, and be good to yourself, or at least try. I'm glad you are seeing someone on Thursday. Can you call into the meeting, GA meeting Wednesday night? Its a great meeting, great call, with a ton of therapy. Hang in there, you got this, you want this, and you need this. xoxox

Charmed,
I am happy to see you have not succeed in your attempt. I have been there. I know what you are going through.....

I hope you believe this is not your 2nd life but is your life for the better. It's hard and imperfect but you can strive to make it better.

You have so much to offer for yourself and for the people you love. Don't define yourself as a compulsive gambler, you are so much more then that. Everybody makes mistakes and we do make same mistakes over and over but that doesn't mean we can't make it better today.

You are loved just as you are, with or without gambling. You are worth it, and you can make it better.

hope you get lots of rest and peace.

I see you, and your smile is beautiful!

Love,
Victoria

Charm--I'm glad to see you back here. I know there are times when the pain is so great that it physically hurts to think, to breathe. that's when I have to compartmentalize what I am going through and only deal with what I can deal with. You have to do what you need to to just survive and keep breathing.

goodness, how glad am I to see you!
I am so glad you did not succeed!
The point is to move forward.
Your point of power is Now!
Today you are reborn with a new second chance, reach out for support and make the choice to follow your happiness and gratitudes. I send you prayers and blessings and my ear- feel free to message me should you need to talk.
I am glad you will have your psychologist every thursday and that you have this place to lean on.

wow charmed, I"m glad you didn't succeed, either.

we do need you here............

please listen to the doctors, and recognize your value.

we do care. a lot.

we might have to exchange a phone number or two. I don't know.

but I am glad to hear from you again.

Dear Charmed, We don't personally know you, but we do love you! You are one of us! Many here have had thoughts of suicide and some have acted upon them like you did. They say gambling addiction has twice as many suicide atempts than all other addictions. I recently went back to the treatment center I went to for 30 days for my gambling addiction. There was a young woman there who was the speaker for the day and she told us her story of her addiction to gambling and what has happened to her. She also tried to take her own life and survived. She was hurt very badly and could have died. She went into treatment as soon as she was well enough. This beautiful young woman said that inpatient treatment saved her life. Do they offer any treatment help in Canida for compulsive gamblers? Please check into it. She was so amazing and now in less than a year she has become a very active GA member. She was the person who told me about the telephone conference call meeting on Wednesday nights. I will bump the post about it to the top so you'll know what number to call. Please join us. Last week we even heard one of our our own DS members voices on the line. Please do what ever you can to protect yourself from your despair from this addiction and know this, You are not a bad person! You are a compulsive gambler and it is an illness. The good news is, You are reaching out for help! As long as you keep at it, you will find your way to recovery. Please take care of yourself and keep reaching out for help. We love you! Hugs! Cher bear!

Charmed - I am so glad that you were not successful in your attempt and that you are back with us. I too have thought many times, even recently, that I should just end it. The pain can be so overwhelming and frustrating. But, I have not attempted it, because I do know that even with all our troubles, my children love me and I love them. It is what keeps me going everyday and helps me to "live another day" to try and fight all the demons that seem to be knocking at my door!

Please find that "something" that is your stronghold to stay with us! DS, your roommate, your students, etc. You are important, even though you don't realize it. You will someday realize how special you are. Please keep seeing the psychologist. It will definitely help you!!

Thank you God for bringing our "sister" back to us!!!

XOXOXO

Dearest Charmed2014,

Can't tell you just how glad I am to see that you are here with us.
We all deserve a chance at making our lives better through staying away from gambling.
It is the toughest thing I have ever done and believe me when I tell you I have worked my fingers to the bones throughout my life.
I have endured deaths and heartbreak and pain that will never compare to the devestation of gambling.

God bless you to be back here with us and please please know that this will all be behind you and that you will come to relish and love your life once again.
It is by starting to once again feel what it is like and can be without gambling by just staying away one day and then another.
You are a most cherished and loved person and being here with us we all know just EXACTLY how wonderful you are and how hard this disease is to have. It is conquerable and I pray that you come to realize that you can overcome this and have your life back better than it ever was and better than you can believe right now. With each and every day and ONE DAY AT A TIME you will come to see this.

we so often covertly mention that this addiction is life threatening,
and in subtle ways talk about how bad it can get..........
everyone tip toes around saying suicide.
It is a very very real theat to us that are addicted and suffering the painful consequences of not being able to control our self defeating behavior.
I too was so close for so long to attempting to take my life...
I was completely tired and destroyed by going to gamble when I should have faced what life was giving me as it would have been far less life threatening and life altering than gambling.

YOU are simply the most courageous person I have ever "known" in a long time.
thank you for your sincerity and honesty as this will help us to see
just how horrible this addiction IS.

Please please do keep coming,
my heart goes out to you and I can hardly stand to not be able
to actually reach out and HUG you and comfort you through
this pain that is so real to me.

Stay strong
and let the doctors help you
and know that you will get through this
we will
together.