Gambling Addiction & Recovery Support Group
Compulsive gambling is an urge or addiction to gamble despite harmful negative consequences or a desire to stop. A preferred term among many professionals is problem gambling, as few people described by the term experience true compulsions in the clinical sense of the word. Problem gambling often is defined by whether harm is experienced by the gambler or others rather...
I realize I'm an alcoholic gambling mess. Anytime I start to consume booze I want to degenerately throw away my hard earned dollars. I have no respect for money now, its just a number. I have to restrain myself from driving down the street to the closest gas station to buy stupid fucking lottery tickets again. How many times am I going to go through this? I remind myself that this is never going to become easier and that today is just as difficult as the last.
It gets easier if you make a plan, address each and every trigger and what you plan to do next time confronted with that trigger. It gets easier if you use affirmations, journaling, artwork, volunteer some where, ban yourself from casinos and quit handling cash. It gets easier if you have a counselor to help you look at why you abuse or sabotage yourself. It gets easier if you learn to be a friend to yourself. But it will not get easier ever if you don't do everything and anything to get between yourself and your gambling. It is doable, but it takes commitment and a never say die attitude. Fight for your life, it is what you are fighting for. You must want it, feel you deserve it, like a dog wants bacon, enthusiastically, with all your heart. You can do this.
1) it made me fearless, like hey why not?
2) it made me forget what i was doing ...............................bad bad choice
the morning resulted in HANGOVER from hell, and the standard NERVOUS BREAKDOWN
if you drink, drink far away from access, or don't at all, I know it's a trigger for me, so i go to safe place