Well, I gambled again today, too much as usual. However afterwards I self-excluded myself from the casino closest to me in a nearby state--the one where I have been going lately. I did this about 5 years ago for the casinos in my state and it helped immensely and I feel confident it will help me again. I know it's not the final answer but it is a good tool. I'm also contacting 2 other casinos which are about 1 1/2 hours away for self-exclusion info. I feel like I am down but not out. Strangely it felt like such a relief to fill out the self-exclusion papers....especially since I had been down that road in the past and knew it was a positive step. In some ways I feel it's sad that it had to come to that again though. I talked to my dad about it and he said if that's what I think I needed to do then it was good that I went ahead and did it. We both agreed that it was good that I took this step BEFORE I started writing hot checks and incurring overdraft fees and all the financial difficulties that I incurred 5 years ago when I had my first bout with compulsive gambling. I definitely don't want to go down that road again.
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