I have no desire to gamble today, but it’s on my mind, especially this time of year. This time last year I was a shell of a human being filled with fear. Why? Because of gambling, my addiction. At the time it seemed like my world was crashing down all around me, everything was wrong, I had no idea which way to turn. I thought I could juggle my addiction with my life, but it wasn’t working for me, I was dying inside. How did I finally realize if I quit gambling things might get better? But I did and they did, I stopped gambling and gained the strength to put one foot in front of the other, answers started to form and reality became clearer for me.
I don’t want to complain about the holidays this year, WHAT? That’s a huge change for this time of year! I can’t say I’m comfortable with them, maybe it has something to do with the weather? But I’m making the most of them this year, hey, I’m a grandma, got those babies to focus on❤️
Today I will not gamble
Hello all,My mind is playing games with me. I’m processing and trying to plan ways to go to the casino tomorrow during work hours. The adrenaline I feel is already driving me crazy. I need to stop those thoughts, be at work all day tomorrow and not gamble.
It's been 2 years since my last post...and my gambling addiction is just as fierce and out of control. I'm back to 2 months behind on my mortgage, electric and gas..credit cards, pretty much everything. I am out of control no matter what I win it just goes all back. I have tried ga, therapy and can go for a few months and start up again. I feel so defeated like there is no way out. After a binge...