I have no desire to gamble today, but it’s on my mind, especially this time of year. This time last year I was a shell of a human being filled with fear. Why? Because of gambling, my addiction. At the time it seemed like my world was crashing down all around me, everything was wrong, I had no idea which way to turn. I thought I could juggle my addiction with my life, but it wasn’t working for me, I was dying inside. How did I finally realize if I quit gambling things might get better? But I did and they did, I stopped gambling and gained the strength to put one foot in front of the other, answers started to form and reality became clearer for me.
I don’t want to complain about the holidays this year, WHAT? That’s a huge change for this time of year! I can’t say I’m comfortable with them, maybe it has something to do with the weather? But I’m making the most of them this year, hey, I’m a grandma, got those babies to focus on❤️
Today I will not gamble
I'm thinking of separating from my wife . She doesn't understand how easily stresed I become and how hard it is to fight addiction. We have a young son. I'm wondering if being on my own might aid recovery.
Some here are aware that I am finishing my Bachelor's degree at age 62, a frequently stressful task. I am taking summer classes which condense 12 weeks of material into 4 weeks. I have a final paper and another paper to finish today. My financial aid is late, my roommate gave 30 days notice that she is moving, (I cannot afford place on my own) and the landlord gave me a no-cause, 60 day...