I have no desire to gamble today, but it’s on my mind, especially this time of year. This time last year I was a shell of a human being filled with fear. Why? Because of gambling, my addiction. At the time it seemed like my world was crashing down all around me, everything was wrong, I had no idea which way to turn. I thought I could juggle my addiction with my life, but it wasn’t working for me, I was dying inside. How did I finally realize if I quit gambling things might get better? But I did and they did, I stopped gambling and gained the strength to put one foot in front of the other, answers started to form and reality became clearer for me.
I don’t want to complain about the holidays this year, WHAT? That’s a huge change for this time of year! I can’t say I’m comfortable with them, maybe it has something to do with the weather? But I’m making the most of them this year, hey, I’m a grandma, got those babies to focus on❤️
Today I will not gamble
Hello friends - been a while since I posted. No excuses, just busy with life and many other things and haven't had much time to post or read. Tomorrow will be one year since I've gambled. I wrote a letter and hope you all don't mind if I share:Hello, my name is Jason, and I’m a compulsive gambler.I’ve uttered these words at least once a week, sometimes more for the last year. Today, October...
Okay, I had a gambling/drinking dream. It was a quick, little dream. Drink in hand and headed for the machines, with the LOUDEST thought in my head, NO ONE NEEDS TO KNOW. The secret. Ugggggggggg This happened the night I went to a concert, Lenny Kravitz, with my husband. I had a Roy Roger’s, I never drink Coke, crazy! Hahahaha Good concert. I quit drinking almost a yr ago, gambling 19...