I have no desire to gamble today, but it’s on my mind, especially this time of year. This time last year I was a shell of a human being filled with fear. Why? Because of gambling, my addiction. At the time it seemed like my world was crashing down all around me, everything was wrong, I had no idea which way to turn. I thought I could juggle my addiction with my life, but it wasn’t working for me, I was dying inside. How did I finally realize if I quit gambling things might get better? But I did and they did, I stopped gambling and gained the strength to put one foot in front of the other, answers started to form and reality became clearer for me.
I don’t want to complain about the holidays this year, WHAT? That’s a huge change for this time of year! I can’t say I’m comfortable with them, maybe it has something to do with the weather? But I’m making the most of them this year, hey, I’m a grandma, got those babies to focus on❤️
Today I will not gamble
Hi Everyone, I needed to post something today, so I’ll start with today is 14 months for me without placing a bet. I want more of this recovery thing my addiction led me to. It’s not always easy to know the right things to say, or what the next right thing to do is. But my heart is warm, and I’m beginning to trust myself a tiny bit more everyday. To some people that might not sound...
I cannot go on. I want to gamble plain and simple. I am so sucicdal. Instead of I will not gamble it is today I will not kill myself. I am not gambling but I am totally miserable. I hate myself and don't know how to get out of the mess I have created. and besides the mess from gambling Nothing ever goes right. I spent the whole day in bed crying or sleeping, miserable. the thought...