I had a good 3 months of abstinence until Friday night. I think I know what I need to do to make sure that I do not go again. I am lucky to have my sister living with me now. She has been extrememly helpful and encouraging. She will also take my credit cards for me anytime that I need her too.
Anyway, I would like to know if anyone has experienced the following....
I am usually tired and to be honested, exhausted all of the time. I am a full time teacher and I have long hours. When I get home I usually crash and I sleep a lot on the weekends. I also flake out on friends because I am tired.
However, when it comes to the casino, I have a surge of energy. I stayed up all night into the morning playing blackjack and spanish 21. I started gambling at 10 PM Friday night and did not stop until 1:30 PM on Saturday. During the time gambling, I am not interested in sleeping or eating at all and I am not tired. I am also surprised at how quickly the time goes by. I had a little trouble switching from blackjack to spanish, because the rules are a little different. Other than that, my eyes were wide open.
I have gambled longer that this in the past (Friday night - Sunday afternoon), I am not sure how this happends. Please let me know if you have had this situation in the past. Just hoping to hear that I am not the only one.
well, I banned myself from the online gambling site that was taking over my life. It feels so freeing!!! I am not a slave to chasing the next “big win” after so many big losses and than losing it all again. Here’s to a gambling free life
I wish I could say I am feeling better but I don't. I in general am not having urges to gamble anymore, but I am so depressed and unhappy and sad. I wake up and the negative self talk starts before I am even out of bed. I am not doing all the things I should be doing because I am too depressed to do anything. I feel like I can't go on another day and that is never going to get better. ...