Gambling Addiction & Recovery Support Group
Compulsive gambling is an urge or addiction to gamble despite harmful negative consequences or a desire to stop. A preferred term among many professionals is problem gambling, as few people described by the term experience true compulsions in the clinical sense of the word. Problem gambling often is defined by whether harm is experienced by the gambler or others rather...
I am new to this forum, I have signed up to let of some stem to people that are going through the same emotional rollercoaster ride that is compulsive, stomach turning,life wrecking gambling.
Having had issues on and off for around 3 years now I have finally hit breaking point
these last weeks
lost my entire salary of 1000 on a fobt machine in betfred in 10 mins
got a loan of my auntie of 5000(meant for a business investment, she wants it back and more by next November)
lost the lot gambling on roulette and then football, I was doing ridiculous bets trying to recover my losses, I had a number of near misses as well like last minute goals etc.
flatmate/partner leaves to go to Spain for Christmas, leaves me 500 for her rent, I lose the lot.
then unbelievably two days ago I found a wallet on a bench that had 105 in it, I got up to 700 by yesterday morning and then lost it because I am a greedy cunt!!
I really feel like topping myself right now I am 20 and seem to have a mountain of personality problems that cause my self destruct, what is wrong with me, I now have to lie about the rent, ive lost my job and in general I am pretty fucked
Having had issues on and off for around 3 years now I have finally hit breaking point
these last weeks
lost my entire salary of 1000 on a fobt machine in betfred in 10 mins
got a loan of my auntie of 5000(meant for a business investment, she wants it back and more by next November)
lost the lot gambling on roulette and then football, I was doing ridiculous bets trying to recover my losses, I had a number of near misses as well like last minute goals etc.
flatmate/partner leaves to go to Spain for Christmas, leaves me 500 for her rent, I lose the lot.
then unbelievably two days ago I found a wallet on a bench that had 105 in it, I got up to 700 by yesterday morning and then lost it because I am a greedy cunt!!
I really feel like topping myself right now I am 20 and seem to have a mountain of personality problems that cause my self destruct, what is wrong with me, I now have to lie about the rent, ive lost my job and in general I am pretty fucked
SEEK help now, from God or a loved one.
While is sounds like things are bad for you, it could be worse. I too lost a job, lost all my money, can't pay rent, and am looking at legal consequences due to my illegal acts while gambling. But I am 42 days gamble free, going to treatment and nearly 60 years old. I am not needing to lie anymore and I am on a road to recovery rather than a downward spiral. Remember: to get out of a hole, one must first stop digging. Get to GA, a counselor, or a friend today. If you allow your thoughts to continue to spiral into negativity, it just gets worse. You have a long life in front of you and it can be better - even within 42 days.