Gambling Addiction & Recovery Support Group
Compulsive gambling is an urge or addiction to gamble despite harmful negative consequences or a desire to stop. A preferred term among many professionals is problem gambling, as few people described by the term experience true compulsions in the clinical sense of the word. Problem gambling often is defined by whether harm is experienced by the gambler or others rather...
I will say that it is more of your emotions. It is a normal process to feel so many different emotions after quitting. It isn't because we didn't have them before but our emotions were suppressed by the addiction and once you quit it all surfaces. Now you deal with them, resolve it if you need to, leave it behind if you need to, embrace them if you need to. It's all up to you.
You are doing well, keep it up!
Love,
Victoria
I posted some time ago about the connection between recovery and the steps of the grieving process. There is a lot of truth behind the connection- check them out and see if that helps you identify. Unfortunately, gambling is a very close friend in a weird way and when we lose something that close to us, we grieve.
The first few months of recovery were nothing like I imagined. The problems I thought I would have (cravings) never happened. I did struggle with the regret and remorse for the financial damage I've done, but I'm fixing it and learning to put the regret in perspective.
My moods were all over the place for the first few months. I would be way "up" or a complete basket case. I had trouble focusing on the smallest tasks. I thought I was losing it and I feared I would never recover my mind and my drive/focus. But if you hang in there, it will get better. Just keep actively planning your future and keep making positive changes, however small. Those small successes have real momentum.
In time, you will begin to see the real reason you ended up at the casino doors (chances are it has nothing to do with money). Hang in there!
Suppressing the emotions is what I sought for 40-50 years and sadly, it not only failed as a defense mechanism but made everything worse.
My face to face support group usually has people reporting feeling better after 90-120 days. (3-4 months)
You can get through this
I found that coloring or artwork of any kind relieve depression and anxiety symptoms. Walking or other exercise and naturally stimulate dopamine. This is a time to be on the lookout to not allow yourself to cross addict to another addiction as a substitute. Be aware of drinking, smoking or forming new addictions. Journaling certainly helps and Keeping a diary of what you are grateful for helps me.
Hang in there
At 18 + months of abstinence, I have hope that I will never have to go through the hell that gambling made of my life again.