Hello Lastbet,
You mentioned key words "false illusion," so true!!! Driving to the casino I would think the same, this time I will walk with so much $$!! NOT!! The reality is most lose and give back what they win especially if were compulsive. The fact your posting and facing reality of what did happen or what could happen is awesome!! Its been approx 2 months for me, but feels like I haven't gambled a year!! It feels great, and its possible.
Best to you.
Niki

True about the illusion brother. I am a brilliant math mind. I know how to calculate odds, fix things in my favor, back myself up, every trick in the book with the horses. Unfortunately, I am a compulsive gambler so that doesn't matter. Its not about the money with us. Most normal people would take a small profit and leave. We gamble til its gone. Even if we got rich, whats next? Doesnt matter how good we are. It all ends the same. Good luck and keep me posted on your progress.

Now is the only time you own.
Decide now what you will .
Place no faith in tomorrow for the clock may then be STILL !!!!

Hi Sussiee...absolutely love this qoute! Thank you so, so much-for it is all so true!

Hi Lastbet...today is my first day too and I just set my first goal for 2 weeks free of gambling. I am here right beside you and truly understand how you feel.
Good luck to you!

Congrats bestrong! Help us keep this board active. Its an amazing thing to come here and help each other learn and conquer this addiction.

yeah i get them illusions all the time too. dont know what comes over me and some how think ill actually come out of there with something. all the misery is forgetten from the times before like it never happened. like that little leaperchaun on the front of the lucky charms box just jumped into my pocket or something. lol hell cant get to that casino soon enough when that happens and just know theres a fortune to be made. hell wanna knock every car out of the way that gets in my way so i can get there sooner. yeah big dreams that quickly fade with every 20 put in. lol yup where is that leaperchun, cause i sure wanna kick his ass about now, i do. lol lol lol not to meantion that guy that opens the door for ya when ya leave and tells ya to have a nice day.after ya lost your last dollar. boy ya know how many times i just wanted to slap that prick silly? i mean really, does it look like im smiling by any means? lol lol lol

Lol Dewitt!! :) I can't stand those guys either!!

lastbet - Great post. Online gambling is so tempting. I was doing it for awhile but have stayed away and am so glad I've resisted. Sometimes the computer is a great thing, other times it's a Pandora's box.

Hope you continue to stay GAMBLE FREE!