I’m at 9 months now without placing a bet, and so grateful to be. A day doesn’t go by that I don’t look back and remember how it use to be when I was gambling, I call those thoughts my reminders. And I’m beginning to reflect on my days in recovery, the steps I’ve taken to get to where I am now, I call those lovely memories. Step #1- one day at a time I began abstaining from gambling with a conviction in my heart I’ve never felt in my past attempts at abstinence. I refused to believe my old lies that I was helpless and didn’t matter. I knew I had to make changes in my life that required lots of soul searching and honesty. I’m an addict with all the typical addict behavior, know-it-all-ish, controlling and overly sensitive. I don’t have all the answers and I’ve learned along the way that love isn’t controlling. I’ve also learned there’s a difference between being a sensitive human being and an overly sensitive, self-centered one. I’m grateful for my sense of humor, and learning it doesn’t always have to be self-effacing. I’m enjoying today and looking forward to tomorrow.
People, recovery is a beautiful way of leaving
It was last Sunday and I decided I wanted a manicure. I’m going to be going out of town for a few days with my daughter and her two little ones, for a visit with my sister, and a trip to the LA Zoo. Anyway, back to my manicure. I went to a place I had never been to before, but it was close by, so I thought I’d try it out. A guy did my nails. There was a bit of a communication...
I know there is no such thing as kind of relapsing. Here is what happened and I need help sorting it out and getting back on track. I stopped gambling June 2016. It was hard but it was easier than I expected. I did a lot of recovery. 2 groups a week, counseling and this forum. I will add that I have always still played non gambling card and board games, I know some people can't do that but...