I’m at 9 months now without placing a bet, and so grateful to be. A day doesn’t go by that I don’t look back and remember how it use to be when I was gambling, I call those thoughts my reminders. And I’m beginning to reflect on my days in recovery, the steps I’ve taken to get to where I am now, I call those lovely memories. Step #1- one day at a time I began abstaining from gambling with a conviction in my heart I’ve never felt in my past attempts at abstinence. I refused to believe my old lies that I was helpless and didn’t matter. I knew I had to make changes in my life that required lots of soul searching and honesty. I’m an addict with all the typical addict behavior, know-it-all-ish, controlling and overly sensitive. I don’t have all the answers and I’ve learned along the way that love isn’t controlling. I’ve also learned there’s a difference between being a sensitive human being and an overly sensitive, self-centered one. I’m grateful for my sense of humor, and learning it doesn’t always have to be self-effacing. I’m enjoying today and looking forward to tomorrow.
People, recovery is a beautiful way of leaving
I watched a documentary on a website called Kanopy. I cannot give you a link to the show because access is given through library accounts and the link through my account would not work for you. Kanopy is available through most universities and many public libraries. This was a series called: "You can't Ask That", episode 10:Gambling. The 1/2 hour episode was a talk with I think, 8 compulsive...
I'm new to this group and have never joined a support group online. I have been a compulsive gambler since 2003, with a stint of abstenence for 4 years. I have been gambling again since 2014 and have not gotten myself in to as much trouble as I did before my abstinence. In 2004, I was actually forced to start going to GA because I committed a crime. It was part of my requirement for probation. I...