I’m at 9 months now without placing a bet, and so grateful to be. A day doesn’t go by that I don’t look back and remember how it use to be when I was gambling, I call those thoughts my reminders. And I’m beginning to reflect on my days in recovery, the steps I’ve taken to get to where I am now, I call those lovely memories. Step #1- one day at a time I began abstaining from gambling with a conviction in my heart I’ve never felt in my past attempts at abstinence. I refused to believe my old lies that I was helpless and didn’t matter. I knew I had to make changes in my life that required lots of soul searching and honesty. I’m an addict with all the typical addict behavior, know-it-all-ish, controlling and overly sensitive. I don’t have all the answers and I’ve learned along the way that love isn’t controlling. I’ve also learned there’s a difference between being a sensitive human being and an overly sensitive, self-centered one. I’m grateful for my sense of humor, and learning it doesn’t always have to be self-effacing. I’m enjoying today and looking forward to tomorrow.
People, recovery is a beautiful way of leaving
I have no desire to gamble today, but it’s on my mind, especially this time of year. This time last year I was a shell of a human being filled with fear. Why? Because of gambling, my addiction. At the time it seemed like my world was crashing down all around me, everything was wrong, I had no idea which way to turn. I thought I could juggle my addiction with my life, but it wasn’t...
Hum not so sure I like the new format...but....guess the advertisments are needed....anyway I am glad for the opportunity to share my recovery with so many of you. It always give me a warm feeling to see someone post about their starting down the no gambling path. It is well worth the effort to get your life back... When I first decided to quit gambling all that I saw was a very large mountain...