Its been ages since I’ve been to this site. I’m glad to see it’s still going. It was such a help to me when I first quit and even before when I was thinking about it. Now it’s 3 years today on 1/26 and I’m posting to encourage you all that yes, it is possible and can be done. We all have to find what is our personal breaking point. For me it was a realization that I’d been lying to myself about 3 key things so I thought I’d share them again for whomever might be here to read them and maybe it will help someone else.
1. I thought gambling was fun
2. I thought gambling was a stress reliever
3. I thought I could get ahead by gambling
These things were true until I crossed over from recreational or vacation gambling to compulsive. It sneaks up on you after winning a jackpot and before you know it your gambling max bet, going to the ATM for max withdrawals, cashing checks at the cage, staying out for hours, losing track of time, not eating, breathing loads of smoke, seeing the same people time and again, doing damage control when you get home with your finances, losing sleep, dealing with anxiety, keeping secrets, the list goes on and on.
As hard as it is to quit, look at what is given up on this list or your own list and I tell you it will be worth it. There are days I still want to go but I move my mind to another place and do something else and trust the urge will pass.
Strength to you all!
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