Gambling Addiction & Recovery Support Group
Compulsive gambling is an urge or addiction to gamble despite harmful negative consequences or a desire to stop. A preferred term among many professionals is problem gambling, as few people described by the term experience true compulsions in the clinical sense of the word. Problem gambling often is defined by whether harm is experienced by the gambler or others rather...
Hey everyone!
It has been a long time and unfortunately cannot say it has been good. It actually has been really rough. I tricked myself into thinking I was good at gambling and was so successful. I am soooo tired of lying to myself, family and my close friends. I am tired of myself making everyone think I can beat the casinos or bookies. I can win short time, but because I am a compulsive gambler, I always end up losing big. I can't even bet small anymore. I got an installment loan with a 20% interest for $8,500 to try to gamble back all my money I lost....probably around $100,000 in 10 years..
I won $1800 in two days and I got hooked...started betting bigger and bigger...ended up losing everything.
I know this is time for me stop lying to myself and just change and be a better person for me and my kiddos.
Someday I will learn :(
It has been a long time and unfortunately cannot say it has been good. It actually has been really rough. I tricked myself into thinking I was good at gambling and was so successful. I am soooo tired of lying to myself, family and my close friends. I am tired of myself making everyone think I can beat the casinos or bookies. I can win short time, but because I am a compulsive gambler, I always end up losing big. I can't even bet small anymore. I got an installment loan with a 20% interest for $8,500 to try to gamble back all my money I lost....probably around $100,000 in 10 years..
I won $1800 in two days and I got hooked...started betting bigger and bigger...ended up losing everything.
I know this is time for me stop lying to myself and just change and be a better person for me and my kiddos.
Someday I will learn :(
so, we may as well work on ourselves, dig out of debt, and find something else to do with our time. and, it is that simple.
just stop going when you get sick and tired of going. we are famous for saying: 'I can't help myself' yes we can, but not going into the casino or gambling online. that is the only way we can help ourselves. and don't think I"m lecturing you: I have to remind myself daily that I can't go! cause once I go in there, I lose control.
give yourself a good break away from it. okay? keep posting. we do care here, and we go through the very same struggles. everyday.
You know it's time. Just need to make that a today!
Hugs,
love,
victoria