I'm sorry that I wasn't around a couple months ago when you posted this. I am not sure what I could have offered at the time. I am dealing with the loss of my foster child to his bio dad now, and simply seeing your post at least helped me realize I'm not alone in grief. I hope you have found some comfort and healing over these past months. I am curious about your feelings as time has passed, as I imagine that is the only thing that can make this ache go away.