Food Addiction Support Group
An individual suffering from a food addiction disorder frequently experiences episodes of uncontrolled eating, or binging, during which they may feel frenzied or out of control. They will eat much more quickly than is normal, and continue to eat even past the point of being uncomfortably full. Binging in this way is generally followed by a period of intense guilt feelings...
A while back, like 2 months ago, I tried, yet again, to stop binge eating. At first, I lost a tiny bit of weight, but then things happened: Christmas, stress, getting sick 3 times in 4 weeks, etc. I fell off the wagon. I'm going to weigh myself tomorrow morning, and, I wouldn't be surprised at all if I'd gained another 5 or 10 pounds in the past 2 months.
And, yet, I'm refusing to get down in the dumps about this.
Yes, I fell off the wagon a fair amount the past 2 months. But, I fell off it less then I have in the past, I think. I gained weight, I binged, I missed a lot of exersizing, but I've done worse in the past; I've fallen even further off in the past, eaten even more, gained even more weight, etc.
So, I've decided to think about it like this: lets call the last 2 months "Stage 1" of beating this thing. I call it Stage 1, because that's what it was. I'm not going to be perfect, starting immediatly. I'm 33, I've been this way since I was 10, I'm not gonna unlearn it all in one day!!!!!!!
In "Stage 1" I made a lot of mistakes, but I did some good things too.
Now it's time for "Stage 2", where I take things to the next degree, and become more strict. In fact, my plan is to start a diet on the first day of "Stage 2".
As I start my "Stage 2", I think of some important things I leanred during "Stage 1". Here's what I've learned"
- You have to really, really WANT to beat this.
- And you have to WANT to beat it for the RIGHT reasons. Not just to be thin. Not just for your boyfriend or wife. Not because the magazine models are tell us to. You have to want to beat it because you deserve to be happy, and to be your true self (my true self is not a binge eater, I've decided), and to enjoy life. You have to do it because you want to be healthy, and feel good, and have energy, and be graceful. You have to do it because you understand that you have this one wild, precious life and you don't want to waste it by feeling miserable about yourself.
- Once you understand how much you want it, and why you want it, it becomes easier to do.
- If you're doing it for the wrong reasons, or you don't really want it (but think you should), it doesn't work.
- It is a really, really hard thing to beat, so it makes sense that you have to want to beat it, and have to be doing it for the right reasons.
- I find that my capacity to beat this becomes so big, and become so strong, when I say out loud, "YES, I want this. I want to get better. I choose to get better". Then, when cake or something temps me, it's not really a temptation, because it's not really a question...the question is not, "Should I eat half a chocolate cake?" because there IS NO QUESTION. And the reason there's no question is that I've already decided, I've already chosen - I chose the answer to that question when I said outloud, "YES, I want this. I want to get better."
And, yet, I'm refusing to get down in the dumps about this.
Yes, I fell off the wagon a fair amount the past 2 months. But, I fell off it less then I have in the past, I think. I gained weight, I binged, I missed a lot of exersizing, but I've done worse in the past; I've fallen even further off in the past, eaten even more, gained even more weight, etc.
So, I've decided to think about it like this: lets call the last 2 months "Stage 1" of beating this thing. I call it Stage 1, because that's what it was. I'm not going to be perfect, starting immediatly. I'm 33, I've been this way since I was 10, I'm not gonna unlearn it all in one day!!!!!!!
In "Stage 1" I made a lot of mistakes, but I did some good things too.
Now it's time for "Stage 2", where I take things to the next degree, and become more strict. In fact, my plan is to start a diet on the first day of "Stage 2".
As I start my "Stage 2", I think of some important things I leanred during "Stage 1". Here's what I've learned"
- You have to really, really WANT to beat this.
- And you have to WANT to beat it for the RIGHT reasons. Not just to be thin. Not just for your boyfriend or wife. Not because the magazine models are tell us to. You have to want to beat it because you deserve to be happy, and to be your true self (my true self is not a binge eater, I've decided), and to enjoy life. You have to do it because you want to be healthy, and feel good, and have energy, and be graceful. You have to do it because you understand that you have this one wild, precious life and you don't want to waste it by feeling miserable about yourself.
- Once you understand how much you want it, and why you want it, it becomes easier to do.
- If you're doing it for the wrong reasons, or you don't really want it (but think you should), it doesn't work.
- It is a really, really hard thing to beat, so it makes sense that you have to want to beat it, and have to be doing it for the right reasons.
- I find that my capacity to beat this becomes so big, and become so strong, when I say out loud, "YES, I want this. I want to get better. I choose to get better". Then, when cake or something temps me, it's not really a temptation, because it's not really a question...the question is not, "Should I eat half a chocolate cake?" because there IS NO QUESTION. And the reason there's no question is that I've already decided, I've already chosen - I chose the answer to that question when I said outloud, "YES, I want this. I want to get better."
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I loved this. I wish I could keep it on my fridge. And my computer desk and beside my bed. Just EVERYWHERE. I beat myself up and give up when I mess up. I won't anymore because of this post. Thank you.
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This is such an awesome post, definitely makes me look at my problems with a better attitude. :) I have a question about wanting it for the right reasons though...what if I want to get better so that I can lose weight? I mean this isn't the only reason, but I know my body is not at its healthiest weight and I want to get there at some point. I know being at a healthy size like I have been previously will make me feel more confident, does that make sense?
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