hi. i am a 21 year old college student, and i am also a food addict. i was abused throughout my childhood and teen years by my mom after my parents split. i turned to food because i didn't know where else to turn. every time i was hit or fought with mom, i ate. the worse it got, the more i ate.
by 14, i was 120 pounds. that doesn't sound like a lot, by my cerebral palsy has stunted my growth. i am only 4 feet, 7 inches tall. eventually through a chain of events i won't go into here, god made a way for me to get out. i was taken to my local women's shelter and two best fplaced in their domestic violence program.
that was three years ago. the crazy part about all this is that i just recently (within the last few months) realized that i have a food addictin. i was reading joyce meyer's book "beauty for ashes", when god showed this to me. there's a point in the book where joyce points out the problems that can be caused by abuse. one of the things she talked about was food addiction. i highlighted that and wrote next to it, "am i a food addict?" at the time, it was merely a passing thought. but as time goes on, it has become blatently obvious. prior to reading that and praying about it, i just thought i was a big girl who liked to eat. i have told my family and two best friends. they have all been very loving and supportive, but i need to talk about it with people who know what i'm going through. it's easy for people to tell me "just stop eating when you're full." or "just get out of your wheelchair and use your walker more." but none of them truly understand how it feels to wake up at 3 in the morning craving chocolate, and to feel like if you don't get the chocolate NOW, you'll jump out of your skin. that's why i'm here: to get the support and answers i need so i can get well. thanks for listening. i'd appreciate your feedback.