Iam so depressed today. I woke up at 2 and couldn't get back to sleep. Such dark thoughts. I just wanted to cry. I tried to start healthy anyway, cereal and a banana. But then it was a couple of cookies, then some candy corn, then mac and cheese for lunch, no idea how much but it made me sick, but did I stop there? Of course not, carmel apple and more candy corn, then half of a stale donut. I am so disgusted with me. I almost think I do this to myself on purpose to hurt myself. Some people cut, I binge. I am miserable, still depressed, fat, ugly, stupid. I did go for a one hour bike ride, but unfortunately wasn't hit by a bus.
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