Food Addiction Support Group
An individual suffering from a food addiction disorder frequently experiences episodes of uncontrolled eating, or binging, during which they may feel frenzied or out of control. They will eat much more quickly than is normal, and continue to eat even past the point of being uncomfortably full. Binging in this way is generally followed by a period of intense guilt feelings...
I have been binge free for 3 years now, not by choice however. Met this guy and quit my job to work for him and moved in with him. LOL its nearly impossible to sneak food when your with someone 24/7. So no big prizes for me being able to quit on my own.
In that first year, I really missed my binges. How sick is that? But I realized that no matter what was bothering me emotionally it was my way of coping. And when I couldn't have food, I moved to alcohol. I realized then that it really isn't so much about the pounds we gain or the food itself. Gaining weight was NEVER as bad as some of the crazy drunken things I did-I'm so ashamed of.
I will add though that I binged so badly I actually backed up my colon and it eventually burst. I was in the hospital for two weeks watching the doctors scratching their heads as to why someone so young would appear to have diverticulitus. I knew why. So ashamed. Of course I didn't stop bingeing.
I also knew my self esteem was low, and I had a lot of guilt I was dealing with. So for me it was like self punishment. I trully believe we have to address the problem areas in our lives first. Make a list of them, talk to a friend about them. And while doing that make a strict list of what to eat everyday. The same foods. Everyday. Until you get the idea the food is not a reward, escape or punishment. Eating small amounts all day including sweets and soda. The idea is not to restrict or diet but to reteach eating amounts and time intervals.
Ah yes please don't be like me and reach for some other drug/drink but find a support person and something fun to do. I just wanted to share my story. Just message me if anyone needs a support person or just to vent. The only positive I can remember was coming here and knowing I wasn't alone. Prayers & hugs.
In that first year, I really missed my binges. How sick is that? But I realized that no matter what was bothering me emotionally it was my way of coping. And when I couldn't have food, I moved to alcohol. I realized then that it really isn't so much about the pounds we gain or the food itself. Gaining weight was NEVER as bad as some of the crazy drunken things I did-I'm so ashamed of.
I will add though that I binged so badly I actually backed up my colon and it eventually burst. I was in the hospital for two weeks watching the doctors scratching their heads as to why someone so young would appear to have diverticulitus. I knew why. So ashamed. Of course I didn't stop bingeing.
I also knew my self esteem was low, and I had a lot of guilt I was dealing with. So for me it was like self punishment. I trully believe we have to address the problem areas in our lives first. Make a list of them, talk to a friend about them. And while doing that make a strict list of what to eat everyday. The same foods. Everyday. Until you get the idea the food is not a reward, escape or punishment. Eating small amounts all day including sweets and soda. The idea is not to restrict or diet but to reteach eating amounts and time intervals.
Ah yes please don't be like me and reach for some other drug/drink but find a support person and something fun to do. I just wanted to share my story. Just message me if anyone needs a support person or just to vent. The only positive I can remember was coming here and knowing I wasn't alone. Prayers & hugs.
but thanks again, we are not alone in this
You don't seem to state how you are doing today, is it easier today?
I think it is a tough road, and I understand about the drinking, I've been through what can at least be described as a dependance on alcohol.
I hope you're feeling stronger and moving forward to a brighter future, or looking for some support networks?
Best wishes and thank you for sharing
WS
Stay strong!
Well, the same challenges that caused me to binge in the first place are still here. In fact its harder now cause I can't hide or "take a break" and have a binge. In fact I think its harder to deal with my challenges and issues than it was to face the guilt from the binge. And the GUILT PART SUCKS!!
Ah yes and my surgery left me with lots of scarring in the intestines/bowels. So as karma would have everyday is painful. In fact I have been on liquids for two days (I have to do this often) in severe pain trying to avoid another blockage. My point is nothing works right anymore.
Oh I do pray for everyone! Its so hard. Its even more difficult to do it alone. The best analagy I can give is when I tried to quit smoking after 23 years. I loved smoking and was only quitting for my health. Once I stopped (for only 9 days) I realized that there was no prize for quitting. In fact there's only punishment. For example, no stepping outside during work for a "break" and a smoke. No rewarding myself for getting all the laundry done. NOTHING> SO WHERE IS THE MOTIVATION TO QUIT??? Obviously we have to eat, but truth be told unless we starve the weight is not going to just FALL OFF> again no immediate prize.
LOL... I'm a mother of three, I work two jobs, live with my boyfriend and have way too much to do all the time. So to quit anything that brings me peace or "a break" is nearly impossible for me to do. I will continue to pray for everyone who is suffering with an addiction of any kind!!!