Food Addiction Support Group
An individual suffering from a food addiction disorder frequently experiences episodes of uncontrolled eating, or binging, during which they may feel frenzied or out of control. They will eat much more quickly than is normal, and continue to eat even past the point of being uncomfortably full. Binging in this way is generally followed by a period of intense guilt feelings...
This is my first Christmas as a reformed food addict. It has been really hard and I will admit I have not been entirely successfull and thanks to Christmas treats and bad weather keeping me from outdoor exercise, even with no true binges, a couple of pounds have snuck back on. this morning I am baking cookies to send to long distance friends and am struggling not to eat them. Okay, I had one, but it broke while I was getting it off the tray and I couldn't send a broken cookie could I? And I did scrape the crumbs off the bottom of the cookie sheet and eat them. And those crumbs that fall through the cooling tray. But these cookies are going to normal people. People who can eat one or two and let the rest go for another day without obsessing about them. How do they do that? How do people keep a jar of candy in their homes or on their desk at work? If I had a jar of m&m's on my desk, I would have to refill it everyday or maybe 2 or three times a day. How do you get to normal? I want to be that person. I want to actually enjoy the one cookie without thinking about the ones I am leaving behind. How can I become that person? The one who when cookies are passed around says, "oh, no thank you." I can't do that. What the hell is wrong with me?
i suspect though .... what you are going through is part of that same process, and you will work through it just as you have the rest of the stuff that came attached to this addiction. i suspect this is just another stage you are going through and that if you hang in there it will get better. you will either make your peace with having this kind of relationship with food OR these reactions will fade and you will have more normal feelings toward food.
guess all i'm trying to say is 'hang in there' and don't give up on all the hard work and all the positive changes you made. you've come so far.
I threw the gingerbread house away and force fed my lactose intolerant boyfriend as much ice cream as possible to get rid of it. (Poor guy..)
I guess its kind of like being an alcoholic and always around or seeing temptations. And never being able to have that casual drink.
I think we have to accept the way we are and remember that no matter how far into recovery we are, we will still struggle...
making a little excuse...check
making another excuse...check
chocolate addiction...check
candy at work...check
envy other people who can leave it....check
yep, this is me
Ever since I started taking antidepressents, I have lost some of my appetite, so my obsession with over-eating at normal meals has decreased. But my obsession over sweets is still there. In particular, cookies and icecream.
My roommates stock up our fridge with icecream. It's awful, one of my roommates has THREE different flavors! And it doesn't help that they never eat it, I swear they have never touched it. But I eat a spoonfull or two at least once every hour that I'm there. I have pretty much devoured all their icecream, and they just laugh and say its fine.
But seriously! I can't go one minute in the kitchen without thinking about that damn icecream. With cookies it's worse. Thank goodness they don't make those too often.
Now that it's Christmas, I'm here visiting my parents. My mom made four different kinds of cookies this year. FOUR! Who does that? I sit and stair at the platter on the coffee table while the rest of my family watches Christmas Vacation.
I know exactly how you feel.