I used to be this person who exudes confidence, who was up to do anything, anytime. I never worried about what I ate because sports kept me so thin and I enjoyed working out in my free time. I'm 5'10 and my weight my whole life has been 140-150 always. Three years ago I found out unexpectedly my new boyfriend and I shortly into our relationship were about to be parents. It shattered so many plans I had for my life, the question was I supposed to end up with this guy, what's going to happen constantly in my mind. My daughter is the best thing that has happened to me. I only gained 23 lbs and was on track to losing all the weight I gained, I was 8 lbs to being me again, but a new me a family now, a marriage now, a house now. I then found out I was pregnant 6 months after having my daughter, with my son. I was thrilled but nervous, how much could my husband and I take we are still new to each other and being parents now, and oh now again another baby. I gained 53 lbs with my son and another 10 after he was born. I am so depressed. I love my children but I am constantly hiding, and all I can do to keep me happy and sane is to eat. And I hate it. The scale is creeping up and up my confidence is down. My relationship is worse than ever which is making me turn to food more. I'm so scared idk what to do. I need someone to talk to. I literally cannot stop overeating. I have tried everything, I need advice. I am not me anymore. I can keep it together for the kids, but as soon as they go down I'm so depressed, like I am in some sort of t shirt and swears daily.