Food Addiction Support Group
An individual suffering from a food addiction disorder frequently experiences episodes of uncontrolled eating, or binging, during which they may feel frenzied or out of control. They will eat much more quickly than is normal, and continue to eat even past the point of being uncomfortably full. Binging in this way is generally followed by a period of intense guilt feelings...
Here I am, on day 2. Yay!
I've decided that it's good to write down thoughts, ideas, etc., I have while not binging. Because being a food addict is not just a physical problem - it's a mental one, in the sense that it takes places in our minds. So maybe it follows that it needs to be worked out in our minds.
I feel proud for getting through the 1st day. That can be the easiest day to slip up on, for me, because I haven't invested a lot of time into getting better. If I've been binge-free for a week, it's harder, in a way, to binge, because then I feel like I'll lose a whole week of hard work....
....but, if I've only put one day into it, well, then, I only have 1 day of work to lose.
So, now, onto the 2nd day. So far, so good. Have not binged, even though I am going though a very difficult time with my current relationship, and am stuck at home with a broken foot! I have been trying to think of little projects I can do - repaint my dresser, finally scan all those old photos, etc. - to keep myself occupied, so I'm less tempted to eat.
I've decided that it's good to write down thoughts, ideas, etc., I have while not binging. Because being a food addict is not just a physical problem - it's a mental one, in the sense that it takes places in our minds. So maybe it follows that it needs to be worked out in our minds.
I feel proud for getting through the 1st day. That can be the easiest day to slip up on, for me, because I haven't invested a lot of time into getting better. If I've been binge-free for a week, it's harder, in a way, to binge, because then I feel like I'll lose a whole week of hard work....
....but, if I've only put one day into it, well, then, I only have 1 day of work to lose.
So, now, onto the 2nd day. So far, so good. Have not binged, even though I am going though a very difficult time with my current relationship, and am stuck at home with a broken foot! I have been trying to think of little projects I can do - repaint my dresser, finally scan all those old photos, etc. - to keep myself occupied, so I'm less tempted to eat.
I feel tired, for no reason. And sort of depressed, in the sense that I don't feel like feeling anything.
It makes me wonder if these feelings are connected to food. I'm sure they must be. Maybe I've had some mild depression all along, and used food (sugar) to get my seratonin levels up, and feel better. Etc.
If I've been using food to push down these feelings, I'd say that part of the cure for binge-eatings is to feel my feelings. So I will. I'm staying in, ignoring the phone, and letting myself be tired and a bit lonley and a bit sad and a bit depressed. After all, "the only way out is through".