Food Addiction Support Group
An individual suffering from a food addiction disorder frequently experiences episodes of uncontrolled eating, or binging, during which they may feel frenzied or out of control. They will eat much more quickly than is normal, and continue to eat even past the point of being uncomfortably full. Binging in this way is generally followed by a period of intense guilt feelings...
Today is 3 weeks since I've binged. I've lost about 4 1/2 pounds. Not a lot, but better then gaining even more weight from binging.
I don't know about any of you out there, but, I realized today that I feel like I'm deprived if I don't binge. If I have a hard day, or a difficult evening with my boyfriend, or anything, I feel like I went through this hard stuff, don't I deserve a treat now??
I realize that that is how I rationalize eating crap. I tell myself, "Oh, you deserve it, after that crazy day!"
But that's not true.
Yes, I do deserve a treat after a crazy day. But, when you think about it, eating an entire bag of cookies is not a treat - it's not a treat for my poor body to abuse it like that, and sometimes my stomach feels sick, and, really, in the end, I'm not sure if I ever enjoy eating them, because I just wolf them down without savoring them.
I often binge when I'm trying to repress my feelings. How is that a treat??! It's not.
I often choose to stay home, and eat cake and chips and whatever else I can find, instead of enjoying tea with a friend or going for a walk by the river. How is that a treat?!?!
So, yes, I deserve a treat, sometimes.
But I need to understand what a treat is!
A treat could be: a bubblebath, a cup of chocolate mint tea and a good book, tea with my best friend, a walk, and on and on and on! And, yes, I believe that a treat can be food, too - but it has to be reasonable! A cup of hazlenut coffee and a scone, say, could be a treat.
I am slowly learning to redefine what a treat is.
I don't know about any of you out there, but, I realized today that I feel like I'm deprived if I don't binge. If I have a hard day, or a difficult evening with my boyfriend, or anything, I feel like I went through this hard stuff, don't I deserve a treat now??
I realize that that is how I rationalize eating crap. I tell myself, "Oh, you deserve it, after that crazy day!"
But that's not true.
Yes, I do deserve a treat after a crazy day. But, when you think about it, eating an entire bag of cookies is not a treat - it's not a treat for my poor body to abuse it like that, and sometimes my stomach feels sick, and, really, in the end, I'm not sure if I ever enjoy eating them, because I just wolf them down without savoring them.
I often binge when I'm trying to repress my feelings. How is that a treat??! It's not.
I often choose to stay home, and eat cake and chips and whatever else I can find, instead of enjoying tea with a friend or going for a walk by the river. How is that a treat?!?!
So, yes, I deserve a treat, sometimes.
But I need to understand what a treat is!
A treat could be: a bubblebath, a cup of chocolate mint tea and a good book, tea with my best friend, a walk, and on and on and on! And, yes, I believe that a treat can be food, too - but it has to be reasonable! A cup of hazlenut coffee and a scone, say, could be a treat.
I am slowly learning to redefine what a treat is.
1. A healthier body.
2. A clearer mind
3. Loose weight
4. Feel more confideant because of loosing weight
5. Have more energy
6. Feel my feelings, instead of blocking them out with food.
7. Have more of a life, because I'll go out with friends,or go skating,
instead of staying home and eating.
8. A feeling of accomlishment from beating this food addition.
9. Trusting myself around food, which feels great. Not being
on some crazy diet, or depriving myself, because I choose
to trust myself, to make my own decesions when it comes to
food, instead of letting a book/magazine/etc tell me how I need
to avoid certain foods. No, I will decide what I'll eat, which feels
great.
10. Not feeling chained/addicted to something. Not feeling like
food has power over me.
Number 6 is /so/ important.
good post :)
Thank you and good job!
I am so happy that I found this group, I think the people here are amazing, supportive, and kind.
Great post.
I'm the same way! I have chosen to stay home with food, instead of seeing my BF. I call it "Having a Date with Cake". I don't really understand it, either. Sometimes I wonder - is it just because food is dependable? Not that my BF is totally undependable or anything, but...well, like all realtionships, we have our ups and downs, but food is always consistent, always the same, always comforting.