I would say that the tough times are sort of a predictor for who your friends really are. If you can't accept me when I am down, then you really won't appreciate and love me when I am up. I think if someone sticks and stays the tend to be more genuine. Still can't predict what will happen because people change on you. I know it happened to me. Very hurtful. Just hold on this is your season to find out about you and what you are really made of. Your ship will come in. All those people who were not there for you shouldn't be a part of receiving your blessing. If so, they will suck the ever living life out of you. Let them Go!!

As far as knowing what I'm really made of, I think that I'm not made of that much. I'm told that a man should provide for himself, etc, and that is the definition of a man that I find so often in churches, society, etc, even some say in the Bible, and if you can't do that, then what are you? I try hard to stay faithful to my belief, but when you are being measured like that, it's even harder. I find myself more down then up, yet I still hold to what i believe when I think I should give up.

The first step you need to take is to believe in yourself! If you are down on your luck at the moment and aren't able to provide for yourself, there are still other things that measure your worth. Focus on them! Give yourself credit for what you DO do instead of focusing on what is missing.

Actually I think the first step would be to stop judging your worth by a set of other peoples' ideals. I know exactly what you are being told, my parents have told me the same thing growing up all my life. You know what? So what if my wife is a doctor who will be making more than I will ever see on a paycheck. Am I any less of a man for supporting her through med school, residency, and quitting my job to raise our kid (she is 13 weeks preg.)? Dignity should be derived from your actions. Do you live a good life? Do your best in school? If so then you have no reason to feel bad. Live your life with strength and conviction, the end result is a moot point. No one can ask any more of you than your best.

As for your beliefs...I hate to discuss religion but spiritually, you think God is more interested in how you live your life or how much cheddar you bring home? Do you get into heavan when you break $15.00/an hour? I certainly do not remember an entrance fee into the pearly gates in my teachings...

You can find love without a job. Love has nothing to do with money. You dont want someone who is all about what you can give them. Thats not love. I believe you can have dignity. You should have it. Because you are trying to look for a job. Its not like you are not putting in any effort. So just keep doing what your doing. Hold your head up high. Something will come your way.

Thank you all for your comments and advice so far, it's given me something to think about and encouragement. Also thank you Ashley1e, it's not that often I get those kind of words from the female gender, it's good to know that women out there still think like that. Again, thanks to all of you, it's given me encouragement and reminders.