I have suffered from generalized anxiety disorder since I was a child. I am very aware that things like anxiety and depression can cause actual physical symptoms like stomach issues and tense muscles. However, the level of pain I have started to experience over the past year has gone way beyond tense muscles. Recently I saw a Rheumatologist it was diagnosed with fibromyalgia. I was told that I did not meet the classic diagnostic criterias for fibromyalgia but it's what fit best for my symptoms. I brought up that I was only 27 and just because I only I didnt have all the symptoms now didn't mean that I wouldn't develop more as I got older and that I wasn't going to wait until I matched all their criteria to start making changes. My doctor agreed with us and was very receptive. I've been signed up for some fibromyalgia information sessions and some classes that are supposed to teach me how to make some healthier choices that will hopefully help limit and deal with my pain but they don't start for another two month. Unfortunately, one of the areas that I could use some help with and I causes me a lot of anxiety falls in between what a medical doctor and mental health professional would address. I'm a very messy and disorganized person. It is something that embarrasses me because girls are supposed to be neat and organized. I dont want to be this way but anxiety and now the added pain is exhausting and I am easily overwhelmed. I try to start small but always get overwhelmed by how much there is to do and end up accomplishing nothing. My boyfriend and I have been talking about moving in together and this is one of the biggest things holding me back. Its not knowing how to prioritize and best use the little energy I have. My boyfriend says that he doesnt care that Im not tidy. He says that keeping things tidy could be one of his responsibilities and I could have others. But my biggest fear is that he wont feel the same way after six months or a year of having the responsibility of tidying especially if I havent learned any new life skills or coping strategies. Ive expressed these fears to him and he has been supportive and understanding but how long can he be so before he starts to think I dont have faith in him or us? And of course the more anxious I get the more pain I have and vice versa and I get stuck in these loops that can be very hard to get out of.