These past couple months have just been kicking my ass. I have some random target on my back at work that resulted in my hours being cut without warning (which is putting me in a bad financial situation), and now certain people are literally watching my every move and reporting everything to my boss. I work with animals, lots of things happen that are unpredictable or hard to control-but suddenly any of these things that happen in my presence are my fault. I'm also getting bumped from doing certain things that I can do with no problems because they apparently don't think I can. My anxiety level is through the roof because of this.

To add to that, my boyfriend just finished telling me that he's miserable about this too...which would be sweet except that he meant that my negativity is making him miserable. He told me he's not sure how much longer he can help me with all this, it's taking a huge toll emotionally to the point where he's sometimes glad he's only home long enough to sleep. I understand that he's stressed, being in school full time and coming up on graduation plus working part time plus dealing with me is a lot...but apparently even when I do my best to keep things to myself to avoid this problem, it's happening anyway. I'm terrified that he's going to leave me...he's the one thing that (until recently) seemed to be positive.

It's only been like 2 months since I was diagnosed with Fibro, so I'm also still coming to terms with that and trying as hard as I can to modify the way I do things so they don't worsen my symptoms as much while still getting things done...but that isn't easy. Literally the past couple months have seemed like one bad thing after another and I can't seem to get ANY support from anyone, and all this is making my symptoms worse...I'm at the end of my rope. I don't know what I'll do if I lose him...