Having my adult daughter totally estrange herself and her family several years ago, now my adult son being "too busy" for even a phone call leaves me in a vacuum so to speak. He doesn't understand, let alone have a clue what things are like around here and why I refuse to interact with his stepfather. I've tried to tell him, it just falls on deaf ears.

A vacuum that is sucking the very life out of me. I'm in a "marriage" that is on paper only, disabled, unable to divorce because I'm not financially well enough off to survive more than a couple months.
I'm invisible to him for all intents and purposes.
As an old woman who is not in any physical danger, there are no resources for me to fall back on and if I move out, I could only survive about 2 mos. I'm too old and sick to risk living on the streets.

Six weeks ago, he announced he was quitting his job due to "stress" He seems to think I'm so stupid I didn't see the real reason for that. Seems he got reprimanded for the first time by his higher ups and that pissed him off immensely. He sought out his dr. and because his blood pressure was higher that particular day, they supposedly recommend he leave the job. I know he didn't tell that dr. he doesn't mind his diet, doesn't do any kind of heart healthy things, can run around doing whatever HE wants, when HE wants, how He wants with no problems. He's "punishing" his employer by not going back to work, knowing him, that reprimand will be withdrawn and he just might go back to work, but, I really don't know. He's an expert at mind games.
Outsiders think he walks on water. No one has a clue as to just how great a manipulator he is and how good he is at mind games.

He's refusing to tell me just what he plans on doing so I'm left hanging in the air, again.

All that has transpired in the last 6 weeks has only served to trigger what I was told is PTSD from my lifetime of abuse as a kid and later in marriages. BTW, early on he did physically abuse me but that ceased when he finally got busted for DUI.

The stress of not knowing what in the hell is going to happen financially has me bouncing off the walls, in a chronic state of panic and I suspect paranoia as well.

I'm in therapy but even with this new one, I'm going nowhere.

My trust with others is now non-existent and thanks that I no longer have any contact with the outside world.

I'm only posting here trying to get some of the stress out of me.

No one can help me, this is my path in life and I just have to hope it will end sooner rather than later!!!