Sometimes I think the schizophrenic in a family can often be the healthiest member of the family, because they are the ones who get help. I have been rejected by my siblings because of my diagnosis. It hurts me, I grew up thinking they would me three of some of my best friends for life. Not so.
I try to help others, but now im really sad, for the first time in a while i have no one , nobody to love or love me. its very hard to help others if i cant help myself. i thought i had purpose but dont. im very sad now . i dont know what im going to do now. i dont feel loved anymore.
Trying to reach to the people who have been to a situation like this. My marriage has many flaws, of course but I have a great husband and I love him but I've never been in love with him. We met 20 years ago, married for 15. He is great in most things, he loves me very much and has proved that along the years many, many times. He is the kind of guy most people like, excellent brother, son, father...