I am writing this now because may not have time tomorrow. I got off work was to be picked up by my brother. Due to my car getting got mangled in wreck. I was one minute Later out of my job . my brother goes on a tirade yelling that i am not really working that i am fucking lying to him excuses me of being a meth head, taking off from my work and just doing something different and garbage like that he called me and my nine year old daughter bitches for the way we act and Lie yes my nine year old was in the car as he was going off on me mostly. So he refused to take me to do errands and at one point on the ride home threatened us get out and walk home . in my past my brother and my dad were violent and had violent mood swings yea well my dad died so that only leaves my brother around to deal with bad temper and all . So my after work experience was fucked by the time i got home i was so beat down by his words that i just fucking was depressed and miserable so i sent my daughter to have dinner with her grandma and I got drunk as hell on whiskey and cheap tequila its about twelve am here Half the reason I going to Arizona well one of the reasons to leave mostly is to get free of my brother and his toxic behavior . He don't live with me just in the same neighborhood but the sooner i move away from him the better today he acts like he did nothing wrong fine as long as he is no longer mad at me I don't care my heart hurts so much today feel like it wants to shatter I just wish I could disappear the more distance I put between me and Florida and the situations hear the better