It's ok for you to feel bad about your situation. Just because others have had it worse doesn't make your struggle any less valid.

Are there any resources perhaps available through your school? I know sometimes a good school counselor can be a little hit and miss, but he or she might be able to at least give you some information on where you can turn.

What about friends? Can you stay the night with a friend from time to time, just to get a little respite from the tense vibe in your home? Maybe doing something fun will also help lift your spirits a bit.

Not often. We don't have a car either so I'm kinda stuck home with them. The fighting used to be worse. Id go to bed crying for weeks.

Seek out opportunities through school, like volunteer communities or sports or an art club.
This will help you develop other things to focus on and may make you feel like you are able to contribute positively to things in your control. It was also provide an outlet for you to vent.
If you are in an abusive situation talk to your guidance counselor.

This is an unhealthy situation for you. Do what the others have suggested - your school counselor
can help. A trusted friend's parents are another resource. Get involved with activities at school, spend as little time at home as possible. These are adult problems going on at home, You are just a child. It is not your job to solve them. Take care of yourself, be good to your mom, and don't engage - don't argue with your brothers.

Big hug for you sweetie.... I am so sorry you are being put in the middle of such a toxic situation.... I agree with other others to talk with someone at school..... a nurse or even a teacher

You could perhaps write them both a letter telling them how much putting you in the middle of this 'fight' is hurting you and quashing your spirit.... You are the child and want to be able to allowed to love all of your family..... There could be thing going on that haven't been fully disclosed

I'm glad that you've found us..... Another hug......xo

I do talk to the school social worker but mom doesn't know and I'd like to keep it that way. She wouldn't look at me the same. She's actually the one who showed me this site. I talked to her today about my fears of mom being sick and what would happen if she fell down and got so hurt she had to go to the hospital or what if nothing gets better and everything just keeps getting worse and worse. I know I'm a kid but I've grown up fast. I've had to deal with mom being sick and all the yelling for my whole life and I should be used to it, it shouldn't upset me how it does. I came home from school today trying to think positive because I had just talked to ms.m the social worker and she told me I need to let things go because it's out of my control. But then I get home and all I can see is how much pain my mom is in. She had to mow the lawn because my brother won't help and she just kept going when it hurt. Now she can barely walk and all I want to do is cry again but I have to stay strong and smile and laugh for her.

No you shouldn't be used to it Sophia..... You shouldn't have to get used to verbal/emotional abuse... that's not okay sweetie and your mother is the parent here not you

I'm so sorry that you're going through such a difficult time.... Gentle hug.... I'm glad you have someone at school to vent to and find some support from......xo