Have you considered counselling? You could ask your family doctor, or look into cancer charities, who also help the carers, families and loved ones of cancer sufferers. I think talking this through with a trained, neutral person could really help. I think you need a safe space to express your pain and loss, and also possibly resentment at the others for moving on in their lives.

I have been going to a therapist and been on meds for depression which doctors believe was triggered by my mom getting cancer in the first place. I am apart of Relay for Life in my town which I go to every year, but nothing seems to work. Thank you for your words. It means a lot.

Thanks for replying. You will never forget your mum. She was, is and always will be a vital part of your life. But moving on and enjoying life doesn't mean you are forgetting her, in fact I think it is what she would want for you.

Maybe you could make a memory book - write down all your happiest memories of her, maybe add photos or other mementos (tickets, receipts, notes, birthday cards etc).

Have you mentioned the dreams to your therapist? They might mean something, but equally they might be a natural part of mourning and grieving, your body and mind processing the emotions you are feeling. I have not dreamed about people who have passed away. But I had a friend who I cared for a lot, and we parted painfully. I used to dream about him often, the worst was dreaming he was back in my life and we were happy, because then I woke up and remembered the truth, that he probably hated me. That is the closest I have come to what you describe.

If the therapy and meds are not working, maybe you could try different meds, or a new type of therapy, or even a new therapist. There are many different styles of therapy and some work better for certain people than others. Ask what else is available.

As for your dad, I try and remember that you cannot change other people, you can only change your reaction to them. He is hurting too. But some people express this in different ways, and others struggle to express it at all and feel better simply pushing it all down and keeping going - it is scary to face up to such extreme pain and loss of a life partner. I would mention these feelings to the therapist too.

I hope you feel better soon, I will keep you in my thoughts.

I am sorry to hear about your mom passing. It doesn't get better and it never will. You don't have to move on, but you can get through it. There is no time limit for grief and not everyone grieves the same. Don't worry about what anyone thinks unless they have been in our shoes. Hugs to you, take all the time you need