Ok so I'm gonna add tis even though no one has replied. My mum still seems good. More clear then I have seen her in quite a while. She hasn't gone crazy buying stuff or anything. Im still trying hard to believe this is a good thing, that things are good and this isn't the calm before the storm, but the rainbow after the huge storm we were in for like 3 1/2 years. I really hope hings are ok now, Please...

There are degrees of mania. Hypomania is a not-as-severe state of mania that sounds similar to what you describe.Sometimes hypomania does not lead to full blown mania, but sometimes it does.

And sometimes hypomania is what you see when you have not fully brought someone down form mania.

It could also be a temporary result of the medication change. (Was it an antidepressant? Increases in antidepressant dosing can often cause mania or hypomania).

Wish there was a better answer for you, dear, but I;m afraid you will have to wait and see. Treating bipolar disorder is a lot of trial-and-error.

If the sleeping issues continue, I would call her doctor.

No she isn't on antidepressents. They set her off really bad. She is on a mood stabiliser and a antiphycotic. Yesterday when I saw her she seemed a bit more "normal". Not down or up really. Although things were making her laugh alot. Im just so sick of this. It's ruining my life. I dont want to worry about it any more. Sometimes I think if I could leave I would. I know it's selfish. But I hae depression myself...

So mum still seems fine, altho I broke and ended up telling her how depressed and anxious I am all the time. She was cranky and then kept trying to turn it all back about her. Then said she wants me to see a doctor. Which I am, made an appointment. But now I keep worrying that I have made things worse or something. Im scared that she really was ok and me bringing this up will set her off in some way. I just wanted to talk to my mum. I mean she is my mum NOT the other way around. Does it always have to be about her. She says she's sick. I know that that is one of the main reasons Im so sick. Im sick too. Have been since I was 15! Im 23 now. Ive been sick longer then her. I can't deal. Maybe I'm selfish. I dont know. I do my best for her. My best for everyone. If thats not good enough Im not sure what to do. Now Im just wishing I hadnt brought it up. What if things were fine and me bringing it up is going to ruin things. I just dont know what to do anymore. I just thought it might help if mum realised what all this is dong to me...

I have been there more times than I wish to count. If you want to help you must be healthy yourself. Get the help you need to deal with your struggles. Sometimes you just can't help your mom and you have to accept that. It is not easy to do. It is good you are close and can make notes on what you see. It is normal to read something into every action. You have to try not to let the thoughts get carried away though because you will drive yourself crazy. Monitor what is going on and if it really starts to seem odd then do something about it. I also tried telling my mom what she did to me and it isn't worth it. Unless they are fully balanced I don't think they really grasp what you are saying the way you want them to. I mentioned something to my mom and then she said I was the one that was sick and needed the psych Dr. not her. It is a vicious circle. I know how you long for that relationship and you want a mom that you can talk to about everything but when they are unwell it is hard to have that. It is a sad and horrible disorder that hurts so many people not just the person who has it. Continue to keep track of things that are odd but sometimes there will just be hints here and there as long as it doesn't balloon into something big then let it be. Nothing is ever going to be perfect all of the time. Watch out for the spending, my mom spent her way into oblivion. She should be declaring bankruptcy but can't afford that.

Thankyou...

Now mum seems a little cranky. Although that is her or used to be her "normal" deposition. But still thats worrying me. Everything worries me. I was scared when she seemed too good, and now I want that back. Its just that everything makes me think OMG not again. I want to live my life. Im going away next weekend and I want to be able to just go and be happy. Relax and have fun for once. Not be worrying about mum. Im scared of the thought of her having an episode and I wont be able to go. I know that selfish. But me and my fianc need this. I mean its not as if she can't get to the doctor on her own. She was cranky today because of lines at the post office and bank and because no one listen's to her at work and she doesn't like the way she's treated (which is valid with some stuff that has happened).

If she wasn't bp, things like that wouldnt worry me but because she is, I never know what is just "normal" (as in lots of people would be cranky about that stuff and what is something more.)

She didn't go into mania at all last year when she was on a mood stabilizer and an antipsychotic. Then they took her off the antipsychotic. She was of it for a fair while before she went into mania again (I think stress from work did it) She is now back on it again, though they had to lower the dosage of mood stabiliser because she shakes badly when the mood stabiliser is too high.

So Im praying that because she is on the antipsychotic again that it will keep her level/stable like last year. I mean she got depressed and cranky and stuff last year, but didnt have what I call an "episode". Which was good, there were difficult times, but I could live that way. I cant live never knowing when she could go off again, always in fear of it. It stops me from having a life because I have to drop everything.

I just never know wether Im paranoid or not. She seems clear and everything at the moment. Just in a little of a bad mood which is normal right? Everyone does that. I just wish now I wasn't panicking when she was "too good" it was just that I wasn't use to that...

Sorry Im rambling

Goodm you should go away and don't call your mom at all. You really need to put your fiance first and take this time with him. You are about to begin a new life with him and he needs to be first in it. You should try to start now to let go of mom a bit and concentrate on the life you are starting. I know how hard that is to do but you will not be able to do much more with constant worrying over your mom than if you take a step back. If you want your relationship to work out with your fiance, as loving as he may be, give him the love and attention he needs so that you don't lose that. I can only tell you from my own experience and we have been married 16 years. My family sacraficed so much while I was running after my mom and worrying. If this had been at a different time in our life or marriage, we could easily have ended up split. I know I have a wonderful man and great kids, we also knew there was a light at the end and I would be able to help my mom. I did help her and in the end she had the right to take it to court to regain so it was sort of all for nothing, but she is alive and would not have been had I not helped. However, I know that I can never put my family through that again or myself. Things will be as they will be and I have no choice but to let go of the rope completely. I love my mom but my own family comes first and if that means she suffers, I know I did all I could. You cannot continually fight a losing battle. Please look after yourself and your future first and then your mom. You will need the support of your fiance etc in order to really help your mom anyhow. Just don't take him for granted.