Hi, I have never done anything like this but i was told it could help.... I am 20 year old girl and I have known my mom has had bipolar since i was 10. I didn't know exactly what it was at the time but I just said okay and went along with it. I never understood why my mom would randomly go on 20 mile runs or spend $2000 in a day. I just thought this was normal for people to do sometimes. I never noticed any of the bad things since I started getting older. When my mom is manic she has stages. First stage is she's talking a million miles a minute and she makes up a bunch of lies that don't make sense. Then after this she gets super happy and she feels on top of the world, if we even mention the word manic she tells us to shut up. When she gets in this state she always has one night where she goes out drinking, completely blacks out, and says crazy things to people and can barely stand up. Sometimes when she would come home she would just tackle me and my brother and hit us thinking it was funny but it actually hurt. Then after this comes depression, and I mean depression hard. She doesn't get out of bed. She tries to feel bad about herself and tells me and my dad and brother that we all just need to leave her. After this comes anger. This is the worst part. I don't know when she is gunna blow. Anything can light her fuse. I have to tiptoe around her the entire time. Then eventually she goes back to herself.

Lately though she hasn't been herself at all. It's been 2 moths of her just being a completely different person that I grew up with. My mom was my best friend, I could talk to her about anything and she would have the perfect advice for me. But now I can't even talk to her. She checked her self into a mental institution about a month ago. I thought this was good and she eventually would be back to herself. She had just been really mean for a couple months and it was really affecting my family. She was breaking plates and throwing things across rooms and just screaming at us for no reason. She was put on new medications and after that she was doing okay for a couple days. Then the absolute worse scenario that could of happened happened. My mom got dress syndrome which is a 1 in 10,000 chance of taking this medicine. She almost died from this and was in the hospital for 5 days. I was so scared it was insane. After she got out of the hospital I thought she would just get better and she would get back to normal. But, she was put on the same meds and she had in the first place and she is even more mean now. I can't talk to her about anything without her making me feel like a shitty person. She actually insulted my boyfriend while he was sitting next to me and i didn't say anything because I didn't want to get her more mad than she already was (she was already yelling at me for something completely insane that didn't make sense). When I talked to her the next day about how that made my boyfriend uncomfortable that she said those things. She screamed at me and said it was my fault that I didn't say anything and that she had no fault in this situation cause I said nothing. She was literally blaming me for something she said. I just can't talk her and that really really hurts. Every time anything happens i just want to talk to her, but I cant. I just don't know how to deal with this.