you will probably always be scared of when bad things will happen again, try to keep those thoughts in the back of your mind and enjoy the moment, stay strong!

I have no idea how to do that but big HUGS for just having some good days!! Hope there are many many more!!!!

Hi Laura,

BTW, my name is Laura too, IRL...
It is totally understandable that you are hesitant to embrace good things when they happen. But, take the good when its good, those are the moments that help you get through the tough times.
Being properly medicated is likely helping your mom to be her true self, not manic or delusional. She is reaching out, feeling capable, at this moment, of expressing her love for you.
She is doing her best to do *normal* everyday thing like cook dinner, that many people take for granted, but its a huge thing for her. I have learned that its best to let the good be good.
Its hard to totally relax, and maybe not realistic to expect it to last forever... but accept it while it lasts... it may actually last, it may not last forever. But it is good, it is real as long as it is. Just know that the possibility is there for things to change, and the possibility is there for progress as well.
You sound like a very well grounded young lady... and sounds like you have a good dad as well, and your mom clearly loves you, even if she struggle with issues of her own. Let her love you, while knowing that her illness may, at time, seem to rob you of her, but her love, I am sure, is always there.

my mum is BP too.

i've been able to relax a little more by just expecting another episode.
i give up.
she's going to loose it... maybe tomorrow morning.
i just don't expect her to ever do normal mom things.
so it's just like...bonus if she does.
=/
hope that helps

I would say just try to enjoy the good moments while they last, and don't look to far ahead. She probably will cycle into depression again at some point, but don't let that ruin the here and now.

enjoy the moments and remember them when the times are tough. these are what we want, and somewhat of the "reward" for going through the hard part. don't let the possibility of the future haunt you; just enjoy the moment for now and take it one day at a time.

Try and appreciate these non manic/non depressed moments, but also try to remember that there is no 'better' with bp - sorry, there is only degrees of the illness.

My mum is on Depokote, it is a good med, but she may need it adjusting if she starts to go up a bit.
I hope you get your mum back with this med, you deserve it.

Have you thought about some counseling for you? It is traumatic having someone chronically ill in your life .You have mental needs too.:) Maybe some therapy would help you learn to cope with the good and the bad.
Glad she is doing well now.:)

Been where you are now. Things look like they're going well, but worried they'll go bad fast again.

All I can do in these times is hope it keeps up, but prepare myself for the fact that nothing lasts forever.

Enjoy how things are now. Sure it won't last forever, but why ruin the good times worrying. you've been through rough times with your mom so you'll know when they go that way again, but do your best to just enjoy the here and now.

We, as people, are always looking to find out what tomorrow will be like. When things are bad that's fine, it gives us hope. When they're good we have to fight against that feeling to enjoy and appreciate what's happening right now.

Not sure if this will help at all. Just do your best to enjoy how things are now and don't let yourself worry.

Good luck. Glad your mom is doing well right now. Take care.