i have never done anything to help me heal from having a bipolar mother. my habit is to usually shut her out and only talk to my dad who deals with codependency (they have been married for 29 years)
my mother slept all the time when i was younger and was physically/verbally abusive to my sister, brother, and i. when i was 8 my sister who adores my mother tried to explain why "mommy has a hard time loving us" over all my brother and i are the only ones who want nothing to do with her.
my mother has been to multiple therapists and doctors. she has multiple medications which her poorly trained nurse practitioner just gives her and she ends up selling them to neighbors for money anyway. she controls my dad by telling him if he does certain things she refuses to take the medications she ends up taking.
her "good days" last no more than a week and her "bad days" last longer. everyone truly thinks it's more than just bipolar. her actions lead to being manipulative, gas lighting, narcissist personality traits, and kicking me out at 8,11,13, and 16. ever since i left the house at 16 years old i tried to create boundaries with her but over all i'm completely drained by having her in my life and i hope to soon find answers on how to cut her out of my life but still have contact with my dad.
every neglectful thing she has done my father completely supports her and makes up stories to make her seem like a great person. by the end of the day he says
"she's still your mother" which is one of the most triggering phrases i have ever heard.
I'm always getting freaked out about stuff. This has bee happening since I was a child. How do you guys deal with it?
Rummi2 and hoping the outcome of your apt went well...take Good Care Of You...sending a Prayer for your Highest Good. ml